On crushes and hormones

Mouth dry, tight smile. Meanwhile
My heart's trying to fly away.
I feel like a nervous
Child. Why oh why is it so
Hard to just
Say 'hi'?
My calm, my composure,
Shattered. Like glass.
Cheeks hot and flushed; stop blushing
I order. Of course
The body won't follow.
And the ordeal's over. Finally.
As he leaves, I feel
Hollow. Hyperactive heart's replaced
With stone. What's wrong with me,
I ask. Embarrassed heat's gone, leaving me
Cold. It's not an impossible task.
To walk to your crush
And just