as i walk across the blacktop,

barefoot,

i wish that it was harder,

sharper,

/0/

i want to feel the pain,

feel the rush of it,

raw displays,

do i have marks?

/0/

i want to run,

walk deeper,

make it hotter,

this is as close as i can get,

/0/

it's such a beautiful day,

and i wonder why i want pain,

i'm a pessimist,

maybe the sun is too hot,

/0/

i want to feel the pain,

feel the rush of it,

raw displays,

do i have marks?

/0/

beating down on me,

i get that run in,

air-conditioning is safe,

i check for indents,

/0/

they're only temporary,

but my heart is still unrest,

i want to do it again,

but i remember the sun,

/0/

i want to feel the pain,

feel the rush of it,

raw displays,

do i have marks?

/0/

why does it have to be the opposite?

i wish it was winter,

could someone satisfy my emptiness?

i hear nothing but nature,

/0/

i want to scream,

never come back,

everything is too much,

i'm so lonely,

/0/

i want to feel the pain,

feel the rush of it,

raw displays,

do i have marks?

/0/

i'm lost,

my heart is confused,

i want to lose it all,

where are the simple days?

/0/

everything's crashing down,

get me out,

can i get a little help?

i'm feeling a bit torn,

/0/

i want to feel the pain,

feel the rush of it,

raw displays,

do i have marks?

/0/

maybe i've always had them,

running away never helps,

i look up and see if there's a sign,

and i wait.