i just don't understand,

why it's gotta be this way,

did you even want me to begin with?

i have a feeling the answer's no,

/0/

i sit here with my eyes closed,

trying to think of something happier,

trying to get some answers,

breathing in and out,

/0/

trying to calm myself down,

running my hands down my arms,

it feels weird for something to touch me,

i'm so cold,

/0/

your words are ringing in my head,

i hate how you scream so much,

my heart doesn't accept compliments anymore,

because they're lying,

/0/

i'm everything they say,

i'm worthless,

good for nothing,

useless,

/0/

loser,

who can't do anything right,

stupid,

selfish,

/0/

so much more,

and i cry too much,

please help me now,

my heart is wrenching in pain,

/0/

send someone down,

to l-l-love me,

can you make it happen?

the words beat me down,

/0/

like how those people threw me to the floor,

i'd rather have the bruises,

then have the scars,

i know i'm not pretty,

/0/

but did you have to point it out?

couldn't you defend me,

love me,

like you're supposed to do?

/0/

i wish that i was better,

stronger,

but my body doesn't want to fight anymore,

i should have let them had their way with me,

/0/

isn't that all i'm good for?

using?

and abusing?

i'm worth nothing,

/0/

you said it yourself,

everyone says it,

what am i still doing here?

that's right,

/0/

i'm waiting for something,

that's never gonna happen,

could you hurry up?

give me some redemption,

/0/

mercy,

just a little love,

or is it gonna be marks?

what's your pick?

/0/

i thought that i was out of tears,

but they come when i'm alone,

darkness feels two ways for me,

can someone hold me?

/0/

i wish you would just tell me that you loved me,

where's that boy i've been looking for?

that's right,

no one wants to be with me,

/0/

i've got too many problems,

too much "baggage",

who would want me anyways?

i've got nothing to offer,

/0/

i'm just a puppet,

that people love torturing,

and manipulating,

they like seeing me break,

/0/

you'd think i'd be used to it,

but it gets me every time,

maybe it's what i deserve,

maybe it's what's in store for me,

/0/

maybe it's the best i'm getting,

maybe it's my punishment,

maybe it's fate,

oh, twisted fate,

/0/

come and change yourself,

but, i can't be any better to you,

because i've got nothing,

i've got nothing,

/0/

maybe i can love you,

if you're willing to be,

with me,

this messed up girl,

/0/

i wish that i was better,

i wish that you would come though,

when are you coming?

when are you coming?

/0/

i can't live much longer,

i'm waiting,

my breath is waiting,

so, what's your pick?

/0/

bruises or kisses?