Crushed

The only thing that got me through this

was the promise to myself

that I'd never let myself go through this again

once I was free of it.

But now you've got me like I'll never be free,

pulling me back

to our private hell.

.

But I refuse to be leaned on

Refuse to dry your tears

And now that it's over

I refused to calm your fears

Because I want to lean on

Someone else on my own

But I want to be alone.

.

And I'm leaving you behind

If you stay, that's not my problem

I can't afford to pity anyone who suffered with me

--who suffered like me.

And now I'm out of here.

And I'm shaking you off like ash from my shoulders

from a past that ended

when I burned that bridge away.

.

And I refuse to be leaned on

Refuse to dry your tears

And I refuse to be like you

Imprisoned with your fears

And now that it's over

I refuse to be a friend

I refuse to be leaned on

Again

.

And as I leave you behind

I won't let me tell myself

I refuse to hear the truth

--that when I'm running from you

I'm running from everything.

And I'll never face it because

...

I'll never be leaned on

I'll never dry my tears

But I'll never be like you

Imprisoned by your fears

But it will never be over

Until I break free

I'm running forever

I'm running from me.