i hate that noise,
the silence surrounds me,
and i slowly get up,
i try to get out,
but i bang my head,
over and over,
and it kinda feels nice,
did you hear me crying?
i don't want another reason for you to think i'm weak,
did you hear my faltering?
i don't want another reason for you to think i'm stupid,
i wished i was stronger,
i can't even talk,
i make the silence now,
you're probably fed up,
are you tired of me yet?
i wish you would just tell me the truth,
what you say can't be it,
it's way too nice,
i've grown to think that i'm everything they say,
i think you've grown bored of me,
i know you disagree,
i've heard it,
did you hear my vague descriptions?
i don't want another reason for you to think i'm uncreative,
did you hear my pain?
i don't want another reason for you to think i'm depressed,
i don't like speaking,
but you make it different,
i wish i was something better,
when are you going to be like the others?
i wished for so many things,
but i've been let down so many times,
what makes me think that you aren't one?
i can't let my mind accept you,
i can't understand why you're here,
is this a sick joke?
do you actually want to listen?
i can't hear an answer,
did you hear the doubt?
i don't want another reason for you to think i'm closed,
did you hear the ache?
i don't want another reason for you to think i'm pitiful,
did you hear anything?
i could go on forever,
tell me something i don't know,
i wish that everything was straight,
maybe i've messed this up already,
maybe i've told you too much,
i want to take all back,
but i can't close my mouth,
something tells me to tell you everything,
i don't know why,
i wished i knew something,
are you listening?