Himmm…

The word echoed strangely in Lila's head. She closed her eyes. Shadows danced behind her lids.

Himmm…

She sighed. A sudden splinter of pain stabbed her heart as a picture of the man she loved swam into her brain. There was no way to describe him. He was simply perfect. An angel, sent to Earth. Love flooded her body as she thought about him. Why had the universe done this to her? Why couldn't they be together? These thoughts were always in her mind, and she knew they would never go away.

She could have given him everything, but the cruel workings of fate kept him from ever being hers, though they were clearly made for each other. Lila opened her eyes. The stars twinkled above her and the moon shimmered and iridescent grey. But she saw none of it. She could see only his eyes. His clear hazel eyes, filled with love and compassion looking at her. If only.

Lila sat up on the grassy hill she was laying on, and gathered her knees close to her chest, staring into the depths of space. If only he knew she existed. If only they could meet, she was sure he would fall for her.

Lila began slipping into one of her fantasies…

She stands in the crowd, watching him, wanting him, waiting for him to see her, never taking her eyes off him for a second. He walks down the street, smiling and waving to adoring fans, screaming his name, until…he looks at her. Hazel eyes meet blue. Suddenly, the world seems to stop. The screaming of the fans fade into the distance, and there is nothing but the two of them. A dumbfounded expression steals over his face and she faces him determinedly, love pulsing throughout her entire being. He walks slowly towards her, unaware of anything else. She walks toward him fearlessly. They are finally eye to eye. He tentatively extends his arm and places it on her back, then pulls her towards him, kissing her passionately. She kisses him back, trying to keep herself from melting on his shoes. They kiss for several moments, 16 year old and 40 year old, both wanting and needing each other. Then they break apart he looks into her eyes and whispers, I love you.

Then the beautiful fantasy ends. Lila's eyes had slipped closed. She didn't open them, trying to fall back into her dream, but to no avail. She opened her eyes and put her head in her hands. To her slight surprise, her cheeks were sticky with tears. She loved him so much. Why couldn't she be with him?