I look like a monster today

The scars remind me of the pain that I feel

Numbness remains

I feel so alone today

As if no one cares

I don't recognize myself anymore

I have to be perfect

I'm a ghostly reflection

A reflection I don't see

I am a monster today

Hurting

Bleeding

Breathing

But don't you understand that it's a lie they say

Whisperings of things untrue

Lying to you

Wanting you to die

Its them that don't understand I tell myself

All I see is me

Dying

Bleeding

Breathing

Screaming

Pushing you away

You don't want me

You don't need or want me

I lie to myself

I'm a monster inside

Contained by the lies