did you notice that i was holding back my tears last night?
i didn't want you to know,
that i was so close to letting everything get to me,
do you really care?
i hate how everyone thinks i don't matter,
my heart is such a weak thing,
that it lets the tears out more than it should,
i wish someone would just hold me tight,
and i lay here,
about how nothing's gonna change,
i fight back the tears,
i know that i am easy to break,
so that's why i squeeze myself into pain,
to make them stop,
to force them to hault,
i hate myself throughly,
why can't anyone want me?
i wish just somebody would just like me,
but even my dreams deny my wishes,
i can't help but think you're going to be the one,
but still lay here alone,
and i wonder if this is how it's always gonna be,
the hopes crash deeper,
the dreams quickly turn into nightmares,
i want you just to love me,
can anybody find it inside themselves to love me?
i feel so empty,
i'm losing everything i've got,
even though you've told me you'd never leave,
but i feel you drifting,
were you just pretending?
i hate this feeling,
i don't want to be any lower than i am,
because i just might lose it,
totally out of control,
tell me, tell me,
i want to know what you're thinking,
why doesn't anyone trust me?
i want something,
i want to feel something,
staring off into space,
my mind turns the good thoughts into bad ones quickly,
i don't want to be alone anymore,
can somebody help me?
it feels weird for something to touch me,
i want someone to call me beautiful,
maybe loneliness and cruel words are my destiny?
everyone is leaving me,
there must be something wrong with me,
maybe i could get better?
please tell me what i'm doing wrong,
every day is like a slap in the face,
i've still got no one,
i'm still nothing,
can someone come around,
and change it somehow?
i'm so cold.