His lips against mine
His lips pressed against mine, His hand stroking my back. I wanted him to be closer but there always seemed to be something keeping us apart. He was reserved, but something told me he too wanted to be closer.
"Why do you pull away all the time?" I asked laying my head on his shoulder. His muscles were tense. I ran my finger down his chest. "I don't want to stop"
"You know it's not right. If someone was to find out… think about what would happen." He whispered in my ear. I looked up at him my face serious. He pushed my hair away from my face.
"No one is going to find out about us. Mom and dad think I'm at Amy's. Amy knows what the excuse for why I can't talk is. Nothing will go wrong" I said. Why can't he be as sure as I am why can't he just realize that no one will figure out that me and him are together, I thought. There was a knock at the door and the handle jiggled. He put his hand on my shoulder, and stood up.
"Who is it?" he called. There was laughter from the other side of the door. The handle jiggled again.
"Come on dude let me in already" a male's voice called from the other side of the door. I looked at him to see what his reaction would be. His face was grim, and he looked back at me then pulled me to my feet. He pushed me into the closet and closed it. I hear his footsteps headed towards the door. I hear the click as the door opens. I hear the man who had interrupted us laughing at something he had said. Then the door slammed and locked again. The closet door opened and I looked up into the face of my lover. I reached up and wrapped my arms around his neck. I pressed my lips back to his. This time I wouldn't let him pull away. I wouldn't let him stop.
Then the theme to my favorite anime shugo chara started to play. He looked down at me and reached into my pocket pulling out the phone. I sighed annoyed and answered it.
"Hello?" I muttered. Someone on the other end of the phone began to yell incomprehensible words. I held the phone away from my ear until they stopped.
"Mom doesn't have a heart attack what's wrong?" I asked. I leaned against his chest and wrapped my free arm around his neck. He still wasn't getting out of this.
"Gale why aren't you at Amy's house. You said that's where you'd be and her mom had no idea you were supposed to be there!" my mom sounded like she was having a panic attack.
"I didn't want to tell you because it's embarrassing… but if you're going to have a panic attack about it I guess I should tell you..."
"Yes you should young man! What's so embarrassing that you can't tell your mother about it? I gave birth to you remember."
"No I don't exactly remember that… but I'm at my lovers house!" he stared at me in shock and went to push me away.
"You're WHAT!!!!" mom yelled. I laughed, and moved closer to him.
"I'm kidding mom I'm kidding… I'm being tutored by my teacher. I'm at his house" my mom calmed down. He took out a cigarette and put it in his mouth. I grabbed the lighter and lit it for him.
"Well when will you be home?" she asked. I looked up at my teacher and grinned.
"Don't know Mr. Ridner will give me a ride home when we are done ok… I have a test on Monday." I hung up the phone. He glared down at me.
"You're an idiot you know that right" he muttered. I nodded and grinned up at him. He sighed and ruffled my hair.
"you know Mr. Ridner, I could stay the night. No one would now I could just tell my mom I need to study more, then …"
"No you're going home in an hour ok" he stood up and walked into the kitchen. I followed.
"Mr. Ridner, why won't you tell me your first name?" I asked. He glared down at me then got a beer out of the fridge.
"It's none of your business. I told you in the beginning you can come here if you want but you're only a plaything to me. Something to keep me from getting bored. I will use you how I wish and you won't care a bit. That's the agreement we had got it." He said snidely. I glared up at him but didn't dare say a thing after all it was what I had agreed to. Mr. Ridner ran his hand through my long black hair. His sharp blue eyes seemed to be looking into my soul. They were part of the reason why I had fallen in love with him. But I knew better now. Those eyes that seemed to know me and care about be were just a disguise. A mask, he was nothing but an uncaring insensitive ass hole. He pressed his lips against mine and like usual stole by breath. When I was with him I completely lost myself. But I wouldn't let that happen this time. I didn't want to be his play thing anymore. Because I now know that my feelings will never be returned.
I pushed him away and ran out of the apartment. I left my backpack, my jacket and my shirt in the room. The burning in my feet meant I had also left my shoes behind. The icy snow felt like thousands of knifes tearing into my body. I was on fire. People stared at me as I ran past them. Some shouted after me. I ignored them I had only one thought in my head. And that was that he didn't share my feelings. I had given him everything, lost a lot of friendships for him. Since I first met him my freshmen year I pushed every one away, spending all my free time with him. Because I gave everything up for him, I was all alone. Even Amy was mad at me and she was my cousin we had been best friends since the day she was born. Tears ran down my face as my final destination came into site, the old wooden bridge that ran over the river, I ran out onto the bridge and pulled myself onto the railing.
Without that man I had nothing. I gave up my dreams for him. Sure my mom would miss me and maybe Amy too. But maybe I was being rash he was just one guy. I hadn't actually ever tried to find someone else. I took a step back and slipped on some ice. I fell forward towards the ice. As I hit it I could hear someone call my name. Then I was under water the cold stabbing into me. Then everything went black.
"Hey gale! Gale, wake up you idiot. Wake up please gale! I take back what I said I really do! I love you! That's the truth! Please gale wake up!" I was warm, a familiar voice was calling to me but It seemed so far away. I couldn't tell who it belonged to but I knew the words were something I had wanted to hear for a long time. How many years had I waited to hear those words, was it three, Maybe four?
The strong arms around me were shaking, the voice still calling out to me. My wet pants were gone. I was wrapped in a itchy blanket. And I was extremely hot. I could feel the sweat running down my cheeks. No it isn't sweat. It isn't coming from me. They smelled like tears. One ran over my lips tickling them. I licked it away. The person stopped yelling, and started shaking me. Why couldn't they just let me sleep a bit longer? I was so tired, why was I tired. I opened my eyes to see who it was that was so rudely trying to wake me up.
"Gale your awake! Thank god" he pulled me against his chest, his scent filled my lungs and I was suddenly wide awake.
"M…Mr. Ridner! What happened where am I?" I sat up and looked around. I was in his apartment, in his room, lying in his bed. I reached up and touched his face. His cheeks were still wet from his tears.
"You stupid idiot you weren't supposed to get attached to me. Wasn't that the agreement" I looked away. That's right I had broken the agreement. I had come to love him.
"I called your mom and told her you fell asleep while you were studying and that I would bring you home in the morning. So just rest, okay. Your still cold." He said looking away.
"What??" I stared at him in shock.
"My name is Shane…. You can call me by it… but only when we are alone ok" I smiled then clung to him.
"Ok then Shane" I smiled and laid my head on his shoulder. His dirty blonde hair was wet as was his shirt and pants. I pulled away and stared at him. "Are you crazy, you jumped in after me didn't you! And you're still wet! You need to change right now!" I yelled at him. I started to pull his shirt, and then his pants.
"What are you trying to get me to do something with you, attacking me when you're like that?" He smirked
"What are you talking about?" I looked down at myself then up at him. "Why am I naked?" he messed up my hair.
"I couldn't leave you in those wet clothes you would of gotten worse…. So I took them off you. Why don't you go take a shower you might warm up a bit more." He stood up and pulled me to my feet. Then pushed me towards the bathroom. I stumbled a bit then walked into the bathroom. When I was in the door way I looked back.
"Are you coming Shane?" he smirked and followed me.
"Hey idiot, what are you going to tell your mom, when you move in with me?"
"When I what!"
"What you didn't think I was going to let you go that easy did you" Shane turned on the shower and pushed me in. I wrapped my arms around him only one thought in my head. I wanted to be like this forever. I wanted to be with him. His lips against mine.