Description: Arian and Davyn have known each since middle school and they just started their freshmen year of college. Arian has a secret though. He is attracted to Davyn and has been for awhile. What happens when Arian makes a mistake and his secret comes out? Will Davyn be able to handle the truth? And what will they do when one of their lives ends up in danger?

Chapter 1 Broken Hearts

Arian looked at his roommate and teammate from the hockey team and sighed. The other boy was still asleep and their first class was about to start. Arian had had this problem ever since they started high school and the two of them started rooming together. Now they were in their freshman year in college and they still were having this problem. Sometimes Arian had to question his parents sending him to an all boys' boarding school since he was ten.

Not wanting to think about the problem that was his parents Arian instead focused his attention on his still sleeping roommate Davyn. The other boy's alarm was blaring and Davyn was not giving any indication that he heard it. How the other boy could sleep through such an annoying noise Arian had no idea. He almost hated to wake the other boy up though. Davyn looked so peaceful. His short blond hair looked all sleep mused and he had a small smile on his face. The only downside to looking at a sleeping Davyn was the fact that Arian couldn't see his mischievous hazel eyes.

But if they didn't hurry they would be late for class so Arian started counting the ways he could wake the other boy up. One he could pull off the blankets but that never seemed to work. Two he could tip him out of bed but since Davyn was so much bigger than him he hadn't done that since the middle of their freshman year in high school. Three dumping a cold cup of water on him always did the trick but then when it was time to go to bed Davyn would always whined that his blankets where wet.

There was the fourth way that Arian could try. He had never done it before but he always wanted to. Arian figured now was as good as anytime to see if it would actually work and if it didn't none would be the wiser and if it did...well he just hoped that Davyn wouldn't punch him to hard.


Something was different about this morning but whatever it was Davyn liked it and he wanted more of it. He slowly opened his eyes to see Arian standing there with a contemplative look on his face.

"I can't believe it actually worked," Arian said sounding awed. Davyn just glared at the other boy as Arian had always been a morning person. The smaller boy was already dressed in blue jeans and a dark blue t-shirt which made his dark eyes look all the darker but with blue highlights. His black hair was still slightly damp form his shower and hung there loosely.

"Can't believe what worked?" Davyn asked as he rubbed his lips. For some reason they tingled.

"Your new wake up call of course," Arian said turning his head to the side. Davyn had a feeling that Arian was looking for something.

"And what would that be?" Davyn asked curiously. He was still dry after all.

"You mean you don't know?" Arian asked sounding surprised. Davyn shook his head. "If you don't know... I'm not going to tell you. If I told you how it was done then you would just end up punching me putting a stop to it and I kind of enjoyed it. So I'm just going to keep it to myself for the time being."

"Fine be secretive," Davyn grumbled as he got up from the bed. He knew that if Arian wanted to keep a secret he would and there would be no changing his mind. "Do I have time to take a shower?"

"Either it's a shower or breakfast," Arian explained. "I for one know which your friends would prefer."

"Is there anyway possible that you could run and get something for me to eat from the cafeteria?" Davyn asked giving Arian his best puppy eyes that he could muster. "I'm absolutely starving and there's no way I can make it through Professor Barnes history class on an empty stomach."

"I suppose I could," Arian said with a roll of his eyes. "But you'll owe me one."

"Thank you," Davyn called after the other boy as he left.


Even on a full stomach Davyn was having a hard time focusing in his history class. He had felt odd ever since he had woken up this morning and his lips continued to tingle. He ran his thumb along them wondering what the problem was. Davyn looked down at his blank piece of paper and sighed. They were supposed to be writing an essay on the end of the World War II and all of the factors that played into it. He just couldn't seem to concentrate.

Davyn looked over at Arian to see how he was fairing. The other boy alternated between writing furiously and nibbling on the eraser of his pencil. He had never noticed before how pink and delicate looking Arian's lips were. Davyn felt himself blush at the thought; he should not be thinking about his friend that way. Arian must have felt him watching him because he turned and gave him a worried look. Davyn quickly looked away and went back to staring at his paper cursing his teacher for making their test into an essay that was due at the end of the class and for the fact that the man hated computers and made them write out their essays by hand. Arian and his pencil were way too distracting.


"Hey guys," Davyn said as he sat down at the lunch table. His friends and teammates Kacey and Lucas stopped what they were doing and looked at him. Kacey and Lucas were cousins that were born only a week apart so they were raised like twins but most people were surprised by the fact that they were even related because they looked nothing alike. Where Kacey had light hair, light eyes, and always looked pale Lucas had dark hair, dark eyes, olive skin, and was slightly shorter.

"What's wrong with you?" Lucas asked giving him a raised eyebrow.

"Nothing," Davyn said once again running a thumb across his lips. They didn't quite tingle anymore but they still felt different.

"It has to be something," Kacey said. "You're more spacey than usual."

"Hm," Davyn said not really paying attention. He noticed that Arian was making his way towards their table.

"Okay what's going on?" Arian asked as he sat down across from Kacey.

"Davyn's being spacey," Lucas asked.

"You aren't feeling sick, are you?" Arian asked as he leaned across the table and put his hand on Davyn's forehead making him blush. "You do feel a bit warm. Maybe you should go and lie down for the rest of the day, you don't want to miss practice on Thursday and don't forget we have one on Saturday too."

"I'll be fine by then," Davyn said pulling out of the smaller boy's reach which made Arian look slightly hurt. Davyn felt bad about that; he hated when the other boy looked sad but he just couldn't be close to Arian without blushing today. "Besides all the extra work I'll get isn't worth missing a few classes."

"If you say so," Arian said with a shrug still looking upset.

"Anyway," Kacey said trying to break the tension that seemed to have settled over them, "are you guys planning on going to Zack's party on Friday?"

"Probably not," Arian said wrinkling his nose.

"And here I thought you two were such good friends," Lucas said.

"We use to be," Arian said taking a bite out of his burger. "Then we started college and he became captain."

Davyn frowned at the smaller boy. He knew that to most people it sounded as if Arian was jealous but that wasn't the case. Zack also followed them from high school. Zack had kind of fell into being the captain and he started hanging out with them less and less. Arian, who had up until that time had been his best friend, took it hard. The two of them hardly hung out anymore and Davyn even use to be jealous of how close they were now he felt bad for Arian. It was always hard when you lost a friend. Since Kacey and Lucas were new to their group didn't understand the full story.

"Oh," Lucas said looking surprised. "His personality changed a bit then."

"A bit doesn't even begin to cover it," Arian grumbled.

"So what did you think of Professor Barnes giving that essay as a test," Davyn said thinking that a change of conversation was in order. He could tell that Arian was getting upset and he didn't want to see him in a temper.

"And here I thought that pop quizzes were bad," Kacey groaned, "but pop essays are much worse." Arian gave Davyn a grateful smile for changing the conversation which once again made him blush. Maybe there was something wrong with him.

The rest of the week passed much of the same way only each day Davyn's awareness of Arian got stronger. There were little things that Davyn was noticing about the other boy that he had never really paid attention to before. Like how Arian had a little swagger to his walk or how his eyes lit up when he found something amusing. Then there was the way the smaller boy looked in general. Davyn had never realized how attractive Arian was.

"Don't you guys think that Arian's awful pretty for a boy," Davyn told Kacey and Lucas. The three of them were currently eating lunch and Davyn could just see Arian in line waiting for his food. He was laughing at something the person behind him had said.

"I never really thought about it," Kacey said giving him a surprised look. "I mean he's just my teammate. I never really paid attention to his looks or anyone else's for that matter."

"I'm not talking about anyone else's looks," Davyn said as he rolled his eyes. "Just Arian's. Don't you think there's something different about him?"

"I guess," Kacey said with a shrug. "I mean he is the smallest person on the hockey team so that makes him different."

"I don't think that's quite it," Davyn said. "Maybe special is a better word."

"What are you guys talking about?" Arian asked as he finally joined them at the lunch table.

"Trust me you don't want to know," Lucas said. Arian just raised an eyebrow.

"So you guys already for practice?" Arian asked them.

"We have practice today?" Davyn asked as he finally snapped back to reality.

"Yeah," Arian said giving him an odd look. "It is Thursday."

"You would think living with the team manager you would remember these things," Lucas said with a roll of his eyes.


"Are you alright?" Davyn asked him after the two of them had gotten back to their room.

"I'm fine," Arian said as he took off his shirt revealing a large burse on his back which made Davyn wince in sympathy.

"You sure?" Davyn asked not able to believe him. During practice that day Arian got hit by a stray hockey puck. "I mean that thing really walloped you."

"It's nothing I can't handle," Arian said giving him a funny look. "It's not like I didn't get worse when I use to play.

"I know," Davyn sighed. In high school the smaller boy use to play and he always came back from games and practices covered in burses and cuts. He didn't make the team in college partly because the coach thought that he was too small and partly because of the injury he received last season. "Why don't you go lie down on your bed and I'll rub some cream on your back."

"Thanks," Arian said throwing him a small smile and did what was asked. Davyn got the cream and kneeled down next to the smaller boy. He then began to, as gently as he could, work the cream into Arian's injury. He could feel the heat radiating of off it but that did little to distract Davyn from Arian's smooth muscular back. That was until Arian let out a hiss of pain.

"Sorry," Davyn muttered trying to keep his voice steady. Something was seriously wrong with him. He shouldn't be looking at his friend the way he was looking at him.

"Don't worry about," Arian replied sounding relaxed, "it actually feels really good." Davyn didn't say anything. He didn't like to see Arian in any kind of pain. "I really miss playing."

"Well maybe it's a good thing you're not playing anymore," Davyn said and then regretted it as soon as the words left his mouth.

"Excuse me," Arian said as he sat up and his eyes flashed dangerously.

"It's just that you are so much smaller than everyone else," Davyn told him.

"What does that have to do with anything?" Arian asked sounding angry but most of all hurt and betrayed.

"You just always use to get hurt," Davyn said in his defense. "I mean you're only the team manager and you got hurt anyway and don't you remember what happened at the end of last season."

"Everyone gets hurt," Arian nearly shouted. "It's a contact sport!"

"Like I already said," Davyn told him figuring now that he started it he better finish it, "you're so much smaller than everyone else plus there's the fact that you didn't start out playing hockey. So you're really not built for the sport to begin with."

"I didn't think you had such little respect for me," the smaller boy said as he glared at him before stomped away.

"Arian that wasn't..." Davyn started to say before the other boy cut him off.

"Just leave me alone Davyn!" Arian shouted at him. Davyn was so surprised by the smaller boy's harsh tone that he just sat there. He couldn't ever remember a time that Arian ever yelled at him. Arian then walked out of their dorm room where he slammed the door and didn't return until late that night after Davyn was in bed pretending to sleep.


Friday morning Davyn woke up cold and wet. He bolted up in bed and wiped his face off as best as he could. Arian was standing there holding an empty cup in his hand and an unreadable expression on his face.

"You better hurry or you'll be late for class," Arian said then walked out of the room.

Davyn flopped back down on his bed and grimaced; his pillow was soaking wet. Davyn let out a sigh as he thought over yesterday's events. It looked as if the smaller boy was still upset with him. He truly hadn't meant to upset Arian he was just worried about him. During their last game senior year Arian had gotten seriously hurt. He supposed he should have started off the conversation differently or not at all. It was just that his emotions concerning the other boy were all out-of-sorts.

He would have to find someway to apologize to Arian and before their practice tomorrow. Davyn had a feeling that he wouldn't be able to play decently if the were still fighting.

By the time lunch rolled around Davyn himself was angry. He had tried to engage the smaller boy in a few conversations so he could apologize but they all fell flat. Arian would hardly look at him let alone talk to him. Davyn came to the conclusion that if Arian wanted to act like a child and ignore his attempts at an apology that was his problem.

"So what's you're problem toady?" Lucas asked him. Davyn glared at him as he opened up his soda.

"You and Arian fighting?" Kacey asked.

"And what makes you think that we're fighting?" Davyn grumbled.

"Well when I saw Arian in our last class he looked upset," Lucas said with a shrug.

"So where is he anyway?" Davyn asked. "Don't tell me he's not going to sit with us."

"Actually he's in the library working on the paper Professor Clarkson sprung on us," Lucas explained.

"So you mean he's not going to come to lunch at all," Davyn said trying to keep the worry out of his voice.

"Probably not," Lucas said. "You know how seriously Arian takes his school work."

"Its not healthy if you start skipping meals," Davyn said. Under normal circumstances he would run the smaller boy some food but with them fighting.

"Would you like me to bring him his lunch?" Lucas asked with a sigh.

"If you wouldn't mind," Davyn said with a smile.

"I'll be right back then," Lucas said getting up.

"Thank you," Davyn called after him. Even when he was upset with the smaller boy he just couldn't seem to stop worrying about him.

"So," Kacey asked after Lucas had left. "Do you want to talk about what you and Arian are fighting about?"

"Not really," Davyn said. Just because he was worried about Arian that didn't mean he was ready to forgive him not that Arian had done anything wrong to begin with. He was more upset with himself than anything.

"Alright then," Kacey said. "What about Zack's party? Are you going to go to it or not?"

"I just might," Davyn said as he leaned back in his chair. It would be a great way to unwind plus he could put off spending time with Arian.


Arian yawned as he read over the book. He hadn't gotten much sleep last night. He kept playing that conversation he had with Davyn over and over again. He still couldn't believe the things the other boy had said to him, they really hurt. Especially because of the way...Arian shook his head not wanting to think about that if he did it would just upset him more.

"Hey there," Lucas said as he plopped down in the seat next to him startling Arian out of his depressing thoughts.

"Hey," Arian replied as he stared at the other boy wondering what he could be doing here.

"I brought you something," Lucas said as he placed a brown bag in front of him.

"Thanks," Arian said as he took the bag and dug out the sandwich.

"Actually Davyn asked me to bring it," Lucas said hesitantly. "He seemed pretty worried about you."

"Oh," Arian said not feeling so hungry anymore. Just thinking about Davyn gave him an upset stomach.

"You know whatever you two fought about Davyn feels badly," Lucas told him.

"Well he should," Arian grumbled. "He had no right to say what he did."

"You might feel better if you went to Zack's party," Lucas suggested.

"I highly doubt that," Arian told him. "Besides I have this paper to write the one that you should also be working on."

"I'll get it done eventually," Lucas said with a wave of his hand. "I also know that if I get stuck I can call on you for help."

"Gee thanks for that," Arian said with a roll of his eyes. "But I think I need to remind you that if you don't keep up a C average that you get suspended from the team so you might want to wait until after the hockey season is over before you start sloughing off."

"What's the specs for the paper again?" Lucas asked as with a sigh. Arian handed the sheet over with a small smile.


Davyn went to Zack's party and was still so upset that he wasn't even able to enjoy himself. All the other people were walking around and having a good time. Davyn was just sitting on the couch his mind completely on his roommate.

He only stopped by his room quickly after school to drop off his bag. The smaller boy was sitting at the table behind a mound of books. Arian was so into his studies that he hadn't even heard Davyn enter. Davyn didn't want to disturb him so he left without saying anything.

"You know you're bringing down my entire party," Zack said as he came over to join him. Davyn looked at the captain of his team and shrugged. At the moment he really didn't care.

"So Kacey and Lucas mentioned that you and Arian had a fight," Zack said.

"It's so nice of them to spread the news," Davyn said as he ran a hand through his hair.

"Do you mind telling me what it was about," Zack said more than asked. Davyn shrugged and figured that he might as well tell him. Next to him Zack knew Arian the best since they had both started school together at the age of ten; he hadn't joined their group until the seventh grade when he started going to school with them. So if anyone knew of a way to fix what he had done it would be Zack.

"Nice to see that you still care," Davyn shot back.

"Meaning?" Zack asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Meaning that you have practically ignored us since we started here," Davyn said with a glare.

"I had my reasons," Zack said with a sigh as he ran his fingers through his pale curly blood hair his blue eyes holding some type of secret. "But let me try to make it up to you by helping."

"Alright," Davyn said agreeing. He had been friends with Zack a long time and decided to give another boy a chance. "I sort of told him...that I thought that it was a good thing that he didn't play anymore."

"Why would you tell him something like that?" Zack asked sounding shocked.

"Because of how he got hurt at the end of last season, and he even got hurt at yesterday's practice and he wasn't even playing. You should see the size of the bruise. Then there's the fact that he's smaller than everyone else..."

"You didn't happen to mention that last part to him, did you?" Zack asked cutting him off.

"I might have," Davyn said not liking the look on Zack's face.

"You really shouldn't have done that," Zack said as he ran a hand through his hair. "Arian's already self conscious enough about it as it is. You shouldn't have thrown it in his face like that."

"I didn't mean to," Davyn said with a sigh. "I just don't like to see him hurt."

"I don't either," Zack said with a shrug. "But he is the manager now and we need him to run the team especially since the coach is useless."

"You're right," Davyn said. He had never meant to upset the other boy to begin with "I just hope that he can forgive me."

"I'm sure he already has," Zack said as he clapped him on the shoulder. "Just give him some time to cool off."

"Right," Davyn said hoping that Zack was right. He stayed at the party for another few hours before he could no longer stand it and decided to head back to.

When Davyn made it back to his room Arian was right where he had left him; still behind his mountain of books. The smaller boy looked so tired that Davyn was surprised that he still was awake.

"Hey there," Davyn said tentatively not really sure if he was even going to get a response.

"Hey," Arian said so quietly that Davyn barely heard him.

"You're still studying I see," Davyn said hoping to start up a conversation.

"I have a test to study for on top of that stupid paper," Arian explained.

"Listen about yesterday..." Davyn started to say when Arian cut him off.

"Don't worry about it," Arian said setting his book to the side. "Let's just pretend that it didn't happen."

"So does that mean you're going to go back to waking me up the nice way?" Davyn asked as he gave the smaller boy a smile glad that he was just going to let the whole thing drop.

"The nice way?" Arian asked sounding slightly nervous for some reason that Davyn couldn't explain.

"Whatever it is that you've been doing all week excluding this morning of course," Davyn told him with a smile. "I don't consider a cold cup of water nice."

"I don't think you'd like it very much if you knew what it was," Arian mumbled, "but I guess I can do it again."

"Great," Davyn said with a smile. "I'll just head off to bed then. Oh wait I forgot that my beds wet."

"Don't worry I dried your things for you," Arian said with a wave of his hand.

"Thanks," Davyn said. Not that the other boy had noticed since he had gone back to reading his book. "Aren't you going to bed?"

"In a little bit," Arian said. "I just need to do a little more work."

"Suit yourself," Davyn said with a shrug. "Can you wake me up in the morning? I don't want to miss practice."

"Don't I always," Arian said not even bothering to look up this time. Davyn just shook his head and went to bed.


When Davyn woke up he noticed several odd things. He was dry, his lips didn't tingle, and it was quiet. Wondering what time it was Davyn looked at his clock and then grumbled; it was ten in the morning. They had to be to practice in an hour and Arian hadn't woken him up. Here Davyn thought that the smaller boy had forgiven him. Wanting to have a word with Arian Davyn rolled out of with every intention of telling the other boy off but stopped in his tracks all of his angry leaving.

Arian was sound asleep on their couch. Davyn couldn't remember ever seeing Arian when he was asleep as he was always the one to wake him up. Curious as to what a sleeping Arian looked like Davyn crept towards the couch.

Davyn couldn't help but smile at the sight. Arian had an open book resting on his chest and a pencil in his hand. It looked as if the smaller boy had fallen asleep studying. He kneeled next to the couch and was about to wake the other boy up, that was until he got a really good at him. Arian had dark smudges under his eyes and the boy looked exhausted even in his sleep. Davyn didn't have the heart to wake him. Instead he carefully removed the book and pencil then covered the sleeping boy with a blanket.

He was just about to call Zack to tell him that Arian wouldn't be going to practice. He had just picked up his phone when something caught his eye. Arian's lips were partly open. For some reason Davyn was totally entranced by the sight. Before he realized what he was doing he leaned down and placed his lips on Arian's.

Davyn immediately pulled back when he realized what he had done. He had just kissed his roommate. Davyn rubbed his thumb across his lips recognizing the sensation. It's how his lips felt when he had woken up nearly everyday that week.

Did that mean that Arian had been waking him up with kisses and if he had what did it mean? Did Arian like him more than a friend? Did he like more than just a friend? He too had just kissed someone he had considered a friend. Davyn once again looked at the smaller boy. Arian now had a small smile on his face.

Davyn quickly looked away. Too many thoughts were floating around in his head. Thoughts he wasn't sure he should be having or even wanted. He wasn't sure if he wanted the person he liked to end up being another guy. The idea was unnerving. Davyn grabbed his coat and headed out the door. He really needed to think things through.


Arian woke up and stretched. He was still tired but he knew he had to get himself and Davyn up for practice. He slowly got up and looked over at Davyn's bed only to see that it was empty. Arian ran his hand through his hair wondering where the other boy could be. It wasn't like Davyn to get up earlier. Arian then spotted the clock and saw that it was three in the afternoon.

Arian bolted out of bed. He couldn't believe that it was that late. He had even missed practice. In fact practice had been over for an hour. Arian quickly dug his phone out of his pocket expecting to see a call from Zack yelling at him for missing practice but didn't find a single message. Wondering what was going on Arian decided to call Davyn and see what was up. It took several rings before Davyn answered the phone.

"Hello," Davyn said sounding slight off.

"Hey Davyn," Arian said. "I just called to see what happened today. Especially since I woke up so late and all. You didn't miss practice or anything, do you?"

"Don't worry about it," Davyn said with a sigh. "I woke up on time you just looked so tired that I left you sleep. Zack wasn't upset either. He said that he would have you rather rest up than make yourself sick."

"Thanks for that," Arian said. "So are you coming back soon or..."

"Actually I'm going to go out with some of the guys," Davyn said, "so I probably won't be back until late."

"Oh," Arian said surprised by the briskness of Davyn's tone. "Are you up set with me?"

"No," Davyn answered quickly. "Look I got to go the guys are waiting. I'll see you later." The other boy then ended the phone call not giving time for an answer. Arian starred at the phone; he could tell something was seriously bothering Davyn. The other boy never brushed him off like that. Maybe Davyn really was mad at him. He would just have to wait to talk to Davyn when he got home. Arian was able to forgive Davyn; he just hoped that Davyn was able to forgive him for whatever it was that he did.

Arian waited for hours for the other boy to come back and Davyn didn't show up until after midnight. Arian was both upset and relieved. He even ended up calling Kacey and Lucas to see where he was. Neither of them knew.

"I was wondering when you were going to get home," Arian said.

"I never asked you to wait up," Davyn nearly growled.

"So you are mad at me then," Arian said as he looked at the other boy.

"Not really," Davyn said as he rubbed his forehead. "I'm going to go to bed. You don't need to wake me tomorrow I just want to sleep."

"You feeling alright?" Arian asked with a frown. He went to check the other boy's temperature by Davyn pulled away before he could touch him.

"I'm fine," Davyn said. "Just tired. That's why I'm going to take Sunday off."

"Okay," Arian said as he watched Davyn lay down on his bed and then threw the blankets over his head. He was tempted to go and check on him but then thought better of it. It was obvious that Davyn wanted to be alone. He would have to try and talk to him tomorrow.


Davyn spent most of Sunday running in the gym. He wasn't sure if he was ready to face Arian yet, he wasn't even sure if he wanted to. He knew that the smaller boy came to the gym a few times. Davyn always pretended that he didn't see him and the smaller boy would walk away. Davyn felt bad about that. He hated it when Arian was upset and that was the problem. He did like Arian more than a friend and he didn't want to. It would add all kinds of problems to his life that he wasn't ready to face. He decided that it would be best to break off all ties with the other boy.


Arian was still tired when he got up Monday morning. He hadn't gotten a lot of sleep the night before as he was worried about Davyn. He had only seen the boy for a few moments and when Arian had seen him Davyn ignored him.

He figured that he had better get Davyn up early so the two of them could talk. Whatever was bothering Davyn needed to be fixed. He didn't know what was wrong with him he just knew that it wasn't good and somehow involved himself. Arian got out of bed and gaped at the sight before him. Davyn's bed was empty and made. He had never known a time that Davyn had gotten up before him.

Arian sat down at their small table and ran a hand through his hair. It really did look as if Davyn was upset with him. He didn't know what he could have done wrong though. The only thing that came to mind was that he didn't wake him up on Saturday but Davyn made it to practice on time so that couldn't be it.

Then an idea struck Arian. Maybe Davyn found out what he had been doing to wake him up in the mornings. He knew that he shouldn't have done it but he couldn't help himself. He had been liking Davyn since the end of their sophomore year in high school. Through the years his attraction had only gotten worse and it wasn't until recently that he understood the full implications of those feelings.

That was the reason why he had waited so long to act on his feelings. Not was he only attracted to Davy but the other boy was also one of his best friends and he did not want to loose that friendship under any circumstances. He was willing to put his deeper feelings for Davyn aside just to keep that friendship. He thought that Davyn valued their friendship the same way and he hoped that Davyn would come to him with any suspicions that he might have and then hear him out.


Davyn spent most of Monday avoiding Arian. He knew the other boy wanted to talk to him but he wanted to put their little talk off as long as possible. He wasn't even sure the best way to start it. He knew that it wouldn't go well. That's why he didn't make it back to their room until after diner.

"What happened?" Arian said getting up from his spot on the couch. It was obvious to Davyn that the smaller boy had been waiting for him. "You look horrible."

"Arian..." Davyn said. "We really need to talk."

"What about?" Arian asked cocking his head to the side.

"I need..." Davyn said turning away from the other boy. "Just what have you been doing to wake me up this week?"

"I..." Arian said looking slightly terrified.

"You've been kissing me, haven't you?" Davyn said turning to look at the other boy. Arian just stood there a shocked look on his face. "Damn it Arian!"

"I didn't mean..." Arian stammered.

"How could you do something like that?" Davyn asked. "Did you think I would like it?" The smaller boy just opened and closed his mouth a few times.

"I didn't think..." Arian started to say and then stopped.

"Arian," Davyn said hating himself for what he was about to do. He just couldn't face the reality of the situation. It was better to get over with now before either of them got into deep. He didn't want to hurt Arian more than he needed to. "I can't be friends with someone like you."

"I..." Arian said looking hurt. "I need to go." The smaller boy then ran out of the room. Everything in Davyn screamed to go after Arian but he just stood there.

"I'm such fucking coward," Davyn said as he slammed his fist on the table. He didn't have to be so harsh with the boy especially since he didn't mean a word of it. That look on Arian's face; Davyn knew that it would always haunt him.

AN: This is my second story that I've put up on here. Please tell me what you think. I'll be putting up one chapter a week. Thank you for reading.