FAITHLESS

i have never spoken to God
and felt like anyone was listening,
except for, perhaps, my cat
or the nosy neighbor boy with a runny nose.

i have sat begging
with large puffy eyes and sore knees
and prayed to wash away all my mistakes,
all my pain,
if only He would listen.

i have confessed myself to the empty halls
and heard only laughter
bouncing back.