Well you stood there with me in the doorway
My hands shake
I'm not usually this way but
You pull me in and I'm a little more brave
It's the first kiss,
It's flawless,
Really something,
It's fearless.

AUTHOR'S NOTE!
So I've disappeared. What's to come of this story?

I apologize for completely disappearing on Fearless. I can assure you it wasn't intentional. And I can also promise, it WILL be back. I haven't given up on this story. I still have a few pre-written chapters left. Let me start from the beginning, though.

I'm loaded down with school work, work, and real-life issues. Plus I'm still owning my own website, debating on colleges, and trying to find a social life somewhere. Since I've left you all, I've turned seventeen, and I've gotten my license. I feel more freedom, but I STILL don't have much time for anything. I haven't actually written or worked on Fearless in over three months, at least. Honestly, I've barely written A Different Side these past months, too. I just don't have the time. I have about three months of school left-ish, and it's going to be hell.

On the bright side, I haven't given up on this story. Although I look back at ADS and FL and realize my writing absolutely sucked and the chapters are so damn short, I still want to continue with both stories. The reason I've actually taken the time to write ADS recently, is because I know exactly where I want that story to go. I know exactly what I want to happen. And I love the characters so much, that I feel like they're true friends.

I can honestly say I have an idea where I want FL to go, but it's not going that way. I look back at the chapters I have written, and I realize how cliche and how pointless they seem. Somewhere, and I'm not exactly sure where, Fearless turned into this cliched mess.

How to fix this? Re-write the chapters I have. I'm not re-writing them all. But the last one or two chapters I wrote, way back when, are going to be reconstructed. And I can guarantee they won't be posted until I like them enough to share them. These two chapters are stopping my creative process concerning this story. And it sucks. And I'm sorry. It's hurting you guys who actually have read this story so far.

I went back and read some parts of ADS the other day, and realized how fast the story went, and how short the chapters were. I've decided to continue writing ADS, since I'm more than half way there, and it'd be pointless to stop now. But I've also decided to rewrite it almost as soon as I finish it. I like to think that since last summer, and since I've become a junior, my writing has changed for the better. I go back and read my creative writing work from the first semester, and it looks SO much better than ADS or FL.

Basically, look for a new chapter of Fearless in a few weeks. Maybe soon, maybe not. It depends. I feel like I've lost my inspiration for this story. Which sucks, because I really enjoyed writing it so far. I like this story a lot, I'm not going to lie. I can't exactly change the direction it's heading in, and I don't want to, but I can change some things about it that disappoint me.

I don't have the time right now to give to either of my stories, especially Fearless. This story deserves so much more time than what I'm able to give it right now. If I wrote right now, they'd become filler chapters, or short, wimpy things that I wouldn't want anyone to see. Which is why, I'm putting it on a mini-hiatus until summertime rolls around. I've been working on this story for over a year now, and I'm not about to give up on it. It's become too big a part of my life to give up on now.

xxx

Thank you for sticking with me for so long. I'm done apologizing for disappearing. I hope you'll read when I'm able to post something decent. If you're still reading, and sticking around, please push the review button, and let me know, so that I know I'm not doing this for nothing.

always, Emily xx