'Eulogy"

Just like the rain on a cold December day,

I watched this all fall into pieces,

Let him take your life away

Just like the lies I learned to love with all my heart,

We were both so like eachother,

Doomed from the very fucking start

I blame myself today,

For doing this to you;

I should've never opened up that door,

Admit at least that much is true

I swear myself tonight,

I'll do whatever I can think to do

To rid your fucking life

Of everything he did to you

I will lay in the ashes

Of a happiness I never knew;

I will light fire to my memories

I'm doing this all for you

Each nightmare that I dream of him

Is one more that you don't have to

The sickest part of this

Is that I never could never bear to blame you

We should've seen this coming from the very start, My dear

My biggest regret nowadays is that the bastard ever came back here

What I lived for in January fell so far in June,

Revenge my only sanctuary, This eulogy is all for you

I blame that motherfucker

For ruining your life,

Don't even bother Trying to deny it

He might as well have given you the knife

I curse that day in August

More than you'll ever know, Or Maybe

You're the one that gets it the best,

And that's the reason I still have to

Shoot down my happiness,

I'm doing it just for the truth,

Unhealthy for me to bother smiling,

The last one to lay blame on is you

Forget each promise broken

Shattered, dropped own at our feet

A waste of time for a wasted life,

Don't let him make this your defeat, Girl

This is because of me

This is because of Him

A waste of our time,

A waste of the word "Sin"

What am I going to do?

What left is there to even say,

When 'family' means nothing

And the one who promised the most

Just won't Stay?

I will shred every peice of happiness he gave me to bits,

Force every ounce of love out of me

Until I couldn't give half a shit

For the sake of whatever is left,

For your precious sanity

We're mourning the worst kind of death,

When our deceased is still living

I will lay in the ashes

Of a happiness I never knew;

I will light fire to my memories

I'm doing this all for you

Each nightmare that I dream of him

Is one more that you don't have to

The sickest part of this

Is that I never could never bear to blame you