Pensive

Sleepless night leave me

Tired and pensive

Wishing for the impossible.

To be happy.

To be noticed.

To finally be able to

End it.

A quick slash of a knife

Or a bottled drained.

But always lacking

Enough pressure

To induce eternal slumber

Or a few more pills

To put me under.

A sleepless night

To leave one thinking

"If only…"