Chapter 1:Poison Inhale, Deadly Exhale-The room is a pale white. Little stains of black ink corrode the walls. THe white paints seems to decay as it peels off the from the sickly odor in this damp, dormant room. I look down and the chair I am sitting in is mutilated by the grime and blood sprayed trash on the chair legs. My wrists seep out type O+ blood onto the arms of the chair and my lips taste the faint sense of alchohal filled puke I threw up on the ground just a few moments ago. In my left hand, I held a .457 bronze plated magnum with its muzzle pointing straight to my forehead. In my right hand, I had a cigarette which I lit to take the pain of this decision from me but....its not working..........I used my arm to wipe the tears from my eyes but, as soon as I stopped.......That's it, I give up......Ihave no chance in this damned world.......It's funny cuz I said the samething when my mom punished me when I would lie to her....Feh......I put my cigarette in my mouth and unloaded the magazine out of its chamber. I looked at the 10 Pre-loaded bullets; each one coated in a gold-glossy shine........As the hollow-pointed bullets came out, one-by-one, I watched as the last bullet slid into the center of my gritty palm. My palm was pale, both sweaty and itchy but, I ignored the dermis aggrivation. This one bullet......Just for me!....Huh.....This is my gift to myself; a self-paid trip to Hell. I guess Hell is where I am going since I condemned myself to depression. Funny ain't it? The self-condemnation seemed like honey to my lips as I put the bullet in the magnum chamber. I Breathed sweet cancer from my cigarette. One long poison inhale and deadly exhale at a time......I dropped the lit cigarette on the ground without thinking and I raised the gun. I decided to pray, even though there is nothing that could stop me from pulling this trigger. I flopped my hands up and put my bleeding wrists on my face. I opened my mouth but, immediatly closed it after smelling my death-filled, putrid breath. I shook my head and, after gaining my composure back, I opened my mouth again. "Je.....Jesus....Christ....My Lord...M-My Lord....." I chuckled while saying these words. I always, ALWAYS, have said them but, honestly.....I hate God. I always hated him after the murder of my family........That's when I was put together...Like a beautiful puzzle with a breath-taking image......but, slowly.....I get broken in pieces.......


Chapter 2:The Death Script-...We were sleeping that night. I woke up because I heard a scream coming from my older sister's rooms. I slowly but, cautiously, tip-toed myself up the creaking stairs with a small, but sharp, knife in my left shaking hand. I saw that my oldest sister's room was cracked a little to the side.....I heard a mumble...Followed by a creepy moan....i looked through the crack and covered my mouth as I saw my sisters being raped by three masked men. "Who's there?!?" I ran towards my parent's room, screaming my heart out and as soon as I opened the door....I chocked on a tear but, I closed m eyes again. They were shot in the head and hung from the ceiling fan with rope around they're necks. I vomited on the floor while I heard loud, rampaging footsteps surrounding the top floor. I went under the bed and I heard a loud crunch come from above me then another loud bump. I covered my mouth as I saw my father's head roll towards me....Lifeless and his eyes look like they were staring into my soul. I started to cry but, then the men busted through the room, in search of me. "Hey, Where....Where the heck did that girl go?!" "Heck if I knew! Check the room!" They started to search the bodies and the room and I tryed my best not to cry or cough. But, I couldnt hold it in.....I coughed a little and a man must have heard it. "What the......The bed!" He reached his hand towards my face but, I shoved my knife into his hand. As he screamed from the burning pain, I got from under the bed and ran towards the door. "Get her!!"


Chapter 3:The Chase-I ran towards the phone and tryed to dial 911 but, the lines were cut. "Damn it!"was all I heard before I got tackled by one of the masked men. He got on top of me but, I punched and struggled to get out of his grip. "Get off of me!!!" "Hold still, hun, this won't hurt..." He ripped my pajama pants off but, I ripped his mask off and when I looked at him, I froze. ".....Josh?....Joshua?...." He stopped and got off of me when I recognized who he was. The other guy came in about to charge after me but, josh stopped him. "I thought we were gonna take her too?? Come on dude..." "No, back off Chris. She's my ex-girlfriend, Oleseya....." Josh walked to me but, I backed up away from him. "Josh, how could you?!? Why....Why did you do..."He slapped me and grabbed me by my hair and started to choke me...I gasped for breath as he smelled my hair. "You think I did this because I wanted to?...Nononono babe, I did this to prove a point....." He punched me and kicked me down. "NEVER! CHEAT! ON! ME! AGAIN!" He stopped kicking me and I spit out blood from my mouth. I could'nt stop crying as he was talking to his friend and pointing to me. I tryed to crawl slowly but, Josh saw me and kicked my jaw, breaking it. He turned me around and said in my ear, "now you will feel the meaning of breaking up with someone...." I passed out after he and Chris raped me....


Chapter 4:I Was Only 16....-After I woke up, I found a cellphone laying by me. It had an unopened text message. I slowly grabbed it, and opened the text message. It said, [Call an ambulance, your bearing life....:)]. I called 911 and I was sent to the hosptital. After a few days, I got tested for pregnancy......The results, "Um.....Miss Oleseya....Your pregnant." I thought I was gonna be happy when I heard the news whenever I got married someday.....but those words cut through me like a meat cleaver.....I started to cry and scream in my hospital bed. After a few days, my doctor told me about the possibility of me getting an abortion. I thought about it for the longest time.......On March, 18, I got the abortion. After a month of theropy from a pyschologist, I was able to find a place to live and a job thanks to my pyschologist. On my first day working at Barnes&Noble, I met my manager Lucas. He was a 25 year old guy, Nice black hair and kinda short but, he was pretty muscular. I blushed as he kissed m hand. "Ah, the new employee...Oleseya, right?" I Realized I was looking at his eyes but, he waved his hand in my face so, I regained composure. "Oh, Im so sorry! Um, yes my name is Oleseya! Oleseya Newburn!" He smiled and handed me my shirt and nametag. "My name is George Lucas. You know, like the guy that made starwars?" I just smiled and looked confused...."Uh.....Nevermind...Now, your job is too make sure all the books are ine line, clean up any books that are thrown into the shelves, check on the stock in the back stoagre area and count the supplies and books..." As he told me about the job, I was just amazed on how he was. He was really handsome, really nice and sweet, kinda weird but, I overlooked that small part. "Alrighty now! Have fun and don't be afraid to ask me about anything!" He walked past me and I felt something graze my chest but, I noticed his hands were down. *Keep cool, Oleseya, no worries. It was just his shoulder...* That day went so slow.. (even though I only worked for 3 hours) but, after my shift, I was aproached by Lucas again. "Oh, Hello Sir!" He smiled and started to walk towards me but, I kinda just let him walk to me cuz I knew he would'nt try anything..."Oleseya, would you like to do something next week?" I blushed and looked down but, I quickly looked at him and smiled. "uh...ah, yes, sure!" He clapped. "Great! Let's say about friday, 8 o, clock?" "Awesome, I will be here!" He winked at me and I left. I could't sleep that night and the rest of the week was soooooooooo slow I wanted it to end! I think I finally found who I was looking for.....


Chapter 5:Next Week Came Too Soon I Think......-Friday Night. It's 8. Im cold. im soooooo cold........."Oh, Oleseya!" I looked behind me and Lucas was in his car waving at me from out his window. I was so relieved when I saw him, I ran over to his car and said, "Hey, how are you?" "I'm good, Im so sorry I didnt come in time before closing! Oh, Shoot.....Before we go, I have to get something from the store. Would you mind coming with me to help me find my coupon?" I studdered a little but, I smiled again. "Oh-oh, Sure, Of course!" After we went inside, we searched the back oh the store. "Did you find the coupon yet?" "....no, not yet, Lucas...." "Gaaaaah where did I put that dang thing?......Hmmm.....I give up..." He flooped on the floor and I started to laugh. "Get up! Hahahaha....." He got up and was holding his throat." Bleh, im thirsty! Hey, you want something to drink?" You know what I'm actually thirsty..."Sure!" He jumped up and ran out. "'Kay, Be right back!" I smiled and waited.........and waited......and......waited.....I was about to doze off until he ran in with too, sodas. "I'm sorry I took so long, the damn machine broke!" I giggled and took the soda from him. "It's ok! Thanks." I opened the soda and drank some of it and it tasted a bit different than I expected. "wow, this soda has too much fizz! Hahaha....." As, I drank more, I started to feel weak. I dropped the soda and I could'nt move. I could'nt even move my mouth. I watched as Lucas took me, ripped my clothes off and I screamed inside as he raped me.......*No....Not him too...*.......


Chapter 6:Kuroi Light-After the bastard raped me, I went back to theropy. I started to hate God more and more......I started to do drugs and sell them in order to keep my place. *Present Day* I wiped my tears and continued with my last prayer....."My Lord...and Savior......." I clenched my teeth and crunched my hands so hard, they began to break from the inside out. I stood up, screaming at the top of my lungs, "Why did you you have to take my family away from me?!?!" I Threw and broke things around to release my hatred towards this so-called God......"Do you hear me God?!?!?! Probably not cuz you are'nt freakin' THERE!!! You did'nt take me away from my boss that night......HOW CAN I TRUST YOU ANYMORE?!?!?! I HATE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!" I held the gun up and I began to squeeze the trigger.....I breathed in and pointed it to my left temple. "God, if you love me......stop me...." I held my breath and pulled the trigger.....I pulled it again....Again....."What the heck???" I checked the gun and the bluuet dissapeared. I dropped the gun and I screamed as I was freaked out of my skin. I sat on the vomit-covered floor and started to cry again. I cursed at God and began to smell something buring. "...Oh God....." I looked around and my apartment caught fire from the cigarette I dropped earlier. I tryed to get the extinguisher but, the fire blocked the kitchen. I looked around, panicing and I kneeled down saying, "God, I dont want to die anymore! Please....I'm sorry!!" As soon as I said that, time and the fire froze. "Wha.......What?.."Before I got up, a burst of light shined in my eyes. I shielded my eyes but, after a while, the light subsided. I slowly looked around and I saw an Angel with 6 wings standing in front of me, smiling. I began to scream and I began to hit him but, his voice calmed me down like the sound of waves on the ocean bay...."Shh...I am the Arch-Angel Michael. God has favor with you and so, we shall begin!" He held out his hand and my hands were attracted towards his like a powerful magnet. I held his silky, white, wool-like hand and I felt a sudden rush of security and love like I have never felt before in my life.....He put his hand over my eyes and said a prayer. "You may look now, child." I was awestruck as I opened my eyes and looked around the beautiful scenery. I could'nt even speak it was that beautiful. I looked over at michael and he pointed to my left. "Look over there." I looked and a big, huge smile found it's way across my mouth as I saw my family singing and rejoicing!


Chapter 7:i 4give U Hun! 3-My father came to me and hugged me and I bursted into tears of joy and I thanked God for every waking moment I spent there. Dad then said in my ear,"It is time to go, princess...." The words stabbed and broke my heart in two as I let daddy go and Michael touched my head again. "This is the place where sinners go..." I opened my eyes and they started burning......I screamed from the pain but, Michael immidiatly grabbed my hand to shield me from the pain. I looked around me and I saw gore, mutilation, pain, bloodshed, burning, decrepitness, hate, malice, spite, death, every evil thing known to man and more all rolled up into one place called:HELL. I screamed to Michael, "Take me from this place!!!! I'm sorry!! Forgive me!!!! I'm scared!!! GOD, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!" I closed my eyes, crying my lungs out and the next thing I heard was Micheal whisper in my ear,"It is done." I gasped and opened my eyes.


Chapter 8:The Screwtape Letter Saga Already???-I was in a hospital room laying on a bed. I looked at my arms and they were fine. The only thing bandaged up was my forehead but, it didnt even hurt....."So, your awake, huh?" "Waaaah!" I jumped and the guy, maybe 20 years old, was standing there with his hands up as to calm me down. "Whoa, whoa! Calm down there, Miss! Hahaha, I'm sorry I scared you. I....uh didnt mean to!" He rubbed his head and started to laugh nervously but, I started to blush. "it's ok....sir?" "Oh! Forgive my manners! I'm Micheal!" *Micheal?...* I didnt realize he reached his hand out towards me. "Oh, did I scare you again?" "....Huh....oh nonononono Im sorry I was just thinking about something...." *Your name is now Angelica* I smiled and Reached my hand out to Michael. "I'm Angelica. Nice to meet you!" He smiled and told me about how he saw smoke from his apartment above her and he called 911. I almost.....no, certainly started to fall for him. "Oh, hows your head?" He pointed to my forehead and I took the bandage off. He smiled and said, "Beautiful." i looked in a mirror beside me and I had a mark of an Angel's wing imprinted on my head. I whispered, "Thank you God..." THE END.