I'M A GOOD GUY THAT'S NICE BUT I'M ALWAYS JUST A FREIND

AUTHOR PHILLIP ROBBINS

CHET HART WAS SITTING IN CLASS IN THE SEVENTH GRADE

LOOKING AT ANITA HARDING SHE WAS ONE OF THE PRETTIEST

GIRLS AT BUCKNER JR. HIGH . SHE LIVED ONLY A FEW HOUSES DOWN THE STREET FROM HIM SO THEY WOULD OFTEN WALK TO SCHOOL OF A MORNING. WHAT WAS CHET'S PROBLEM,

HE REALLY LIKED ANITA ALOT AND HE WAS TRYING TO WORK UP THE COURAGE TO SEE IF SHE WOULD GO STEADY WITH HIM.

HE THOUGHT THAT SHE SORT OF LIKED HIM BECAUSE SHE WOULD SHARED ALOT OF STUFF WITH HIM SO HE FIQURED SHE WOULD. FINALLY HE ASK HER AT LUCH TIME,

"EEWWWWUUUUU, CHET YOUR A NICE GUY BUT YOUR A REALLY GOOD FREIND AND I DON'T WANT TO MESS THAT UP, CANN'T WE BE JUST FREINDS . CHET WAS DEFLATED BUT HE TRIED NOT TO LET ANITA SEE THAT. HE LOOKED AT THE GROUND BECAUSE HE WAS TO EMBARREST TO LOOK HER IN THE EYES AND SAY, "YEH, I... I... QUESS SO." SEVERAL DAYS LATTER CHET WAS IN THE AREA WERE ANITA AND SOME OF HER GIRLFREINDS WERE , WHEN SHE TOLD THEM, "THAT

HARRY THOMPSON HAD JUST ASK HER TO GO STEADY WITH HIM."

ALL THE GIRLS AT ONCE STARTED CLAMORING ,"WELL WHAT DID YOU SAY, WHAT DID YOU SAY!!!" ANITA ANSWERED . I SAID YES!" CHET'S HEART SANK , HARRY THOMPSON HAD EARNED A REP. OF BEING A JERK BY MOST OF THE GIRLS IN SCHOOL FROM WHAT HE HEARD , HE THOUGHT THAT ANITA WAS AWARE OF THAT. WHY WOULD SHE WANT TO GO STEADY WITH HIM FOR?"

CHET STEWED THE REST OF THAT DAY NOT KNOWING WHAT TO DO OR SAY TO ANITA THAT MIGHT GET HER TO CHANGE HER MIND ABOUT GOING STEADY WITH "YUK" HARRY. AT THE END OF THE SCHOOL DAY CHET WAS WALKING HOME WITH ANITA WHO WAS CHATTERING AWAY A MILE A MINUTE ABOUT HER AND HARRY GOING STEADY . HE WAS VERY QUIET, AS HE LISTENED WITH ONE EAR AND WAS THINKING THAT ANITA HAD NO IDEA WHAT SHE MAY GETTING HERSELF INTO. "CHET , CHET... WHAT'S THE MATTER YOUR SO QUIET THIS AFTERNOON?" I STARTED OFF BY SAYING , "OH..., NOTHING.....

I... I.. , NO DARNIT ANITA I CARE ABOUT YOU AND I THINK YOUR MAKING A HUGE MISTAKE HERE." ANITA LOOKED AT ME AND SMILED AND SAID. "CHET I REALLY LIKE YOU YOUR LIKE A BIG BROTHER TO ME, BUT I LIKE HARRY ,OK...!" SHE WAS SMILING BUT WITH A LOOK THAT SAID BACK OFF ON THE SUBJECT.

I SHRUGGED AND SAID ,"OK, HAVE IT YOUR WAY, BUT REMEMBER I TRIED TO WARN YOU." AGAIN THAT LOOK THAT SAID, DIDN'T I TELL YOU TO BACK OFF.

I WALKED WITH ANITA UP TO HER HOUSE AND SAID , "I QUESS I'LL SEE YOU IN THE MORNING THEN", BUT WITH NOT MUCH ENTHUSIASM. SHE LOOKED AT ME STRANGLY BUT CONTINUED ON INTO HER HOUSE. I STORMED INTO THE HOUSE AND SLAMMED THE DOOR ANGERILY THINKING NO ONE WAS AT HOME . MY MOM SUDDENLY CALLED OUT , "WAS THAT YOU CHET THAT SLAMMED THAT DOOR?" "I..I'M... SORRY MOM

I..M I... OH NEVER MIND", AS I STARTED UP TO MY BEDROOM.

A FEW MINUTES LATTER MY MOM WAS KNOCKING AT MY DOOR, "CHET ARE YOU OK, DID SOMETHING HAPPEN AT SCHOOL THAT UPSET YOU?" I BEGAN TO POUR MY HEART OUT TO MY MOM ABOUT HOW I LIKED ANITA AND HOW SHE BLEW ME OFF. AND HOW SHE LIKED SOME WEASLE BY THE NAME OF HARRY THAT WOULD PROBABLY WIND UP BREAKING HER HEART OR WORSE.

MY PARENTS WEREN'T OVERLY RELIGIOUS BUT WERE CHRISTIANS AND ATTENDED A CHURCH REGULARLY AS DID I .

MY PARENTS RAISED AND TAUGHT ME THAT I WAS NEVER ,EVER TO HIT A GIRL,DISRESPECT A GIRL, OR DISHONOR A GIRL AND I WAS TO BE KIND , A GENTLEMAN ALWAYS , AND NICE TO A GIRL AT ALL TIMES. THESE ARE THINGS THAT I THOUGHT ALL BOYS WERE TAUGHT OR SHOULD HAVE BEEN. I KNEW IF THEY EVER FOUND OUT THAT I HAD DONE OTHERWISE AT ANY POINT ,I WOULD BE SITTING DOWN GINGERLY FOR A LONG TIME.

HOWEVER I KNEW SOME THAT WEREN'T SUCH AS HARRY.

I WAS NO STRANGER TO HARRY BY ANY MEANS, I KNEW AT ONE TIME HE NEVER DID DO WHAT HE'S DOING NOW TO GIRLS.

WHEN HARRY AND I WERE YOUNGER WE WERE FREINDS. WE USED TO TELL EACH OTHER WHAT GIRLS WE LIKED AND SO ON OR WHAT GIRLS WE DIDN'T

YOU KNOW THE STUFF THAT YOUNG BOYS IN THE 3RD AND 4TH GRADES WOULD TALK ABOUT.

WELL THE REST OF JR. HIGH AND ALL OF HIGH SCHOOL WAS VERY SIMILAR. ONLY DIFFERENCE WAS I HAD A BEAVY OF FREINDS THAT WERE GIRLS BUT NO GIRL FREIND YET. I KNEW I WASN'T BAD LOOKING OR I WOULDN'T HAVE AS MANY FREINDS THAT WERE GIRLS. BY THIS TIME THOUGH ANITA WAS WORKING ON BOYFREIND NUMBER SIX , THADDUS COLE. WHO IN MY OPINION WAS THE BIGGEST JERK OF ALL THAT SHE HAS EVER DATED OR GONE WITH. AS WITH MANY OF THE GIRLS SINCE ABOUT THEIR FRESHMAN YEAR OF HIGH SCHOOL WERE ON THE "PILL" AND WERE HAVING SEX WITH THEIR BOYFREINDS ON A REQULAR BASIS. HERE I WAS 18 YRS. OLD AND STILL A VIRGIN AND NOT EVEN A PROSPECT OF HAVING A GIRLFREIND IN SIGHT. MANY OF THE GIRLS ,IF THEY HAD PROBLEMS WITH THEIR BOYFREINDS WOULD AS USUALL COME RUNNING TO ME (THE ADOPTED BIG BROTHER,THE BEST FREIND A GIRL COULD EVER HAVE, OR ANY OF THE OTHER QLICHES ONE WOULD LIKE TO USE) AND I WOULD GIVE THEM A SHOULDER TO CRY ON WHILE I DID WHAT I DID BEST IN CONSOLING THEM AND TELLING THEM EVERYTHING WAS OK. IT GENERALLY WASN'T BUT I HAD LEARNED NOT TO SAY ANYTHING ABOUT THE GUY IN QUESTION EVEN IF I THOUGH HE WAS A PIG AND THE BIGGEST JERK IN THE WORLD FOR HOW HE WAS TREATING THEM. AT THE END THEY WOULD LEAVE SMILING WHILE WIPPING AWAY THE LAST OF THE TEARS AND THANK ME FOR LISTENING.

AFTER GRADUAQTING HIGH SCHOOL I HAD BEEN ACEPTED INTO OHIO STATE OF TECHNOLOGY, ON A EDUCATIONAL GRANT BECAUSE OF MY HIGH GRADES IN HIGH SCHOOL . I WAS TO BE STUDYING ADVANCED COMPUTER OPERATION AND PROGRAMMING WHICH PROMISED AN AVERAGE INCOME OF 200 TO 300 THOUSAND YEARLY IF I GRADUATED WITH HIGH ENOUGH GRADES. WELL I HAD TO DO SOMETHING WITH MY TIME SINCE I DIDN'T HAVE A GIRLFREIND

SO YOU SEE I THREW MYSELF INTO MY STUDIES AND MADE GOOD GRADES AN EXCELLED IN ALL MY CLASSES. NO IT WASN"T EASY FOR ME FOR THERE WERE MANY NIGHTS OF THE MIDNITE OIL BURNING AS THE OLD SAYING GOES. BUT I WAS DETERMINED THAT I WAS GOING TO DO WHAT EVER IT TOOK TO GET AHEAD .

I HAD HOPED THAT MY FRESHMAN DAYS AT COLLEGE WOULD BE DIFFERNET THAN HIGH SCHOOL. SO BY THE FIRST QUATER OF COLLEGE I STILL HAD NO GIRLFREIND AND AGAIN NO PROSPECTS . HOWEVER AS USUAL I HAD A GROUP OF YOUNG WOMEN VERY SIMULAR LIKE THE ONES IN HIGH SCHOOL. BUT AGAIN IT WAS MORE LIKE LET'S JUST LEAVE AT AT BEING CLOSE FREINDS HUH!! IS THAT OK WITH YOU? !!!

SO I ASK ONE OF THE GIRLS ONE TIME AFTER SHE HAD A BAD FIGHT WITH HER BOYFREIND AND I GAVE HER A SHOULDER TO CRY ON. " KELLY , WHAT'S WRONG WITH ME THAT I CAN'T SEEM TO GET A GIRL TO LIKE ME ENOUGH TO WANT TO GO OUT WITH ME?" HER ANSWER WAS , "CHET YOUR REALLY ARE A SWEET GUY AND NICE ALSO , BUT YOUR TOO NICE. AND SOME GIRLS PERCEIVE YOU AS A DOORMAT. AND NO GIRL WANTS A DOORMAT FOR A BOYFRIEND." "WHAT DO YOU MEAN A DOORMAT," I ASK. GIRLS PRESUME YOU TO BE TO EASY OR A PUSHOVER AND NO CHALLENGE AND SO THEY HAVE A TENDENCY TO WALK ON YOUR HEART SO TO SPEAK AS THEY TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOUR NICENESS TO THEM. MANY OF THEM DON'T DO IT TO BE MEAN , HOWEVER THEY DO TAKE ADVANTAGE OF YOU AND YOUR KINDNESS." SO I QUESS IN A WAY YOUR TAKING ADVANTAGE OF ME ALSO THEN ? " "WELL MAYBE ALITTLE BUT CHET REALLY YOUR LIKE THE BEST FREIND THAT ANY OF US HAS EVER HAD AS A GUY FREIND. AND MANY OF US JUST DON'T WANT TO RUIN THAT KIND OF FREINDSHIP." "I QUESS I UNDERSTAND ALITTLE, BUT IT DOESN'T MAKE IT ANY EASIER TO SWALLOW," I ANSWERED.

AFTER SHE LEFT I SORT OF SIGHED AND SAID TO MYSELF , CHET MY friend WE SEEM TO BE HAVING A REPEATING PROBLEM HERE BUT NO WAY OUT. WELL

I GUESS I GO BACK TO WHAT I'M USED TO . SO FOR TWO MORE YEARS OF COLLEGE I AGAIN DIDN'T DO ANYTHING MUCH BUT THROW MYSELF INTO MY STUDIES .AND SPENT a lot OF TIME ALONE WATCHING

TV OR RENTAL DVD'S FROM BLOCK BUSTER. YA ,I KNOW REAL EXCITING STUFF HERE. I MADE MYSELF SCARCE AROUND MY SO CALLED GAL PAL BUDDIES

AS MUCH AS I COULD , BECAUSE SOMEONE HAD TOLD ME THAT I WAS TOO ADVAIBLE AND IT MIGHT HELP IF I DID BECOME UNADVAIBLE AS MUCH.

AT THE START OF MY SENIOR YEAR I HAD TWO CLASSES THAT I HAD CHOSEN TO STUDY IN DEPTH.

ADVANCED COMPUTER SCIENCES AND ADVANCED COMPUTER PROGRAMMING. BOTH CLASSES WERE SPONSORED BY MICROSOFT RESEARCH AND DEVELOPMENT DEPT. THE IDEA WAS THAT MICROSOFT WAS WANTING TO IMPROVE ITS WINDOW PACKAGES AND develop NEW OPERATING SYSTEMS THAT WERE EVEN MORE SECURE THAN THE NEWLY RELEASED WINDOWS 7 FORMAT . THE STUDENTS WITH THE HIGHEST MARKS WOULD BE CONSIDERED

BY MICRSOFT UPON COMPLETION OF THE COURSES AND GRADUATING .

THIS IS WERE I MET ANNA HIGGINS , SHE WAS SMART,

BLONDE ,BLUE EYES , AND HAD A BODY THE VENUS

WOULD HAVE LOVED TO HAVE HAD. HEADSTRONG ,CONTEMPTIOUS ,ARROGANT AND I WAS SMITTEN.

THE PROBLEM WAS SHE EVIDENTLY LIKED ME BUT SHE CAME ACROSS AS NOT LIKING ME. DON'T ASK I DON'T EVEN KNOW HOW TO EXPLAIN IT. THE FIRST FEW WEEKS OF CLASS , ANY THERORIES THAT I PRESENTED TO THE CLASS WAS SOON ATTACKED BY HER SAYING THEY WERE PREPOSTEROUS AND WRONG. THIS WENT ON SEVERAL MORE WEEKS UNTIL THE PROFFESSOR WANTED TO PAIR INDIVIDUALS TO SUBMIT A SPECIAL PROJECT FOR MID-TERM GRADES. QUESS WHO I GOT STUCK WITH, UH HUH ,YOU QUESSED IT . UPON HEARING OF THE PAIRING SHE SMILED ABOUT IT , I WENT TO THE PROFFESSOR TO COMPLAIN ABOUT IT.

"PROFFESSOR ORR, PLEASE SIR ISN'T THERE SOMEONE ELSE YOU COULD PUT ME WITH BESIDES ANNA HIGGINS?" PROF. ORR LOOKED AT ME "MR. HART YOU AND MS. HIGGINS ARE ONE OF MY SORE SPOTS IN MY CLASS. YOUR BOTH BRIGHT STUDENTS BUT YOUR GOING TO HAVE TO CONTROL YOUR ANOMOSITY TOWARDS ONE ANOTHER. IF YOU EXPECT TO GET A HIGH GRADE ON THIS ASSIGNMENT THE TWO OF YOU ARE GOING TO LEARN TO WORK TOGETHER AS A TEAM". I STARTED TO LEAVE HIS OFFICE MUTTERING , "OH GREAT , HOW ON EARTH AM I GOING TO DO THAT, I'M GOING TO FAIL THIS PROJECT AND I'VE NOT EVEN STARTED YET BECAUSE OF HER. SHE

MUST HATE ME OR SOMETHING THERE'S NO WAY WE COULD WORK TOGETHER LIKE THIS. AND DID YOU SEE THAT SMILE SHE GAVE UPON FINDING OUT. GOD THAT SMILE WASN'T A friendly ONE . IF SATAN EXISTS THEN THAT SMILE WAS PURELY EVIL AND CAME FROM HIM."

I OPEN THE DOOR AND FELL OVER SOMEONE, I STARTED TO APPOLOGIZE WHEN I SAW WHO IT WAS,

ANNA. "WHAT THE HELL , WHERE YOU EAVES DROPPING ON MY CONVERSATION?" I STAMMERED ANGRLY. ANNA SUDDENLY GOT A VERY APPOLOGETIC LOOKING FACE AND SAID , " I SEE THAT WE'RE GOING TO HAVE TO TALK , WANT A CUP OF COFFEE WHILE WE DO?" HER SUDDEN CHANGE IN DEMEANOR PUZZELED ME BUT I AGREED RELUCTANTLY THINKING , WHAT IS SHE PLANNING?

AS WE WERE THERE DRINKING OUR COFFEE SHE SUDDENLY SAID , " CHET , I WANT TO BE HONEST WITH YOU , THE ONLY REASON WHY I RAG ON YOU IS YOUR SMART AND INTELLIGENT AND TO SEE IF YOU'LL DEFEND YOUR BELEIFS. (THE WORD CONTEMPTIOUS CAME TO MIND) MAYBE NOT AS SMART AS ME (THE WORD CONCETED PASSED BY) AND BESIDES I SORT OF LIKE YOU (I WAS IN SHOCK , YEP DEFINITLY IN SHOCK I SUDDENLY SNAPPED OUT OF IT AT HER NEXT STATEMENT) CONSIDERING PROF. ORR IS MY UNCLE AND I ASK HIM TO ASSIGN US (WHY YOU EVIL CONIVING,INCONSIDERATE ,CONTEMPTIOUS,ARROGANT, THESE WERE BUT A FEW THAT FLEETINGLY THOUGHTS THAT FLEW THRU MY MIND BUT FOR SOME REASON I LIKED IT NOT BECAUSE OF ALL THE THINGS THAT WERE RUNNING THRU MY MIND BUT BECAUSE SHE SAID SHE LIKED ME. NOT LIKE A friend BECAUSE A friend WOULDN'T GO TO THOSE LENGHTS TO GET CLOSE TO ME.) "SO WHEN DO YOU WANT TO START?" SHE ASK. I MUST HAVE HESITATED TO LONG ,"WELL?" "ER... WHAT ABOUT TOMMORROW AFTER CLASS..." I SAID.

SHE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, "WHAT ABOUT RIGHT NOW!" (HEADSTRONG FLASHED THRU MY MIND)

"I QUESS SO"

WELL IT'S A START OF A STORY BUT REVIEW AND SEND ME SUGGESTIONS IF NEEDED (OK, BEING TRUTHFUL HERE I HAVE NO IDEA HOW GIRLS/WOMEN THINK OK,YES I'M MARRIED AND HAVE BEEN FOR ALMOST 40 YRS. BUT MY WIFE IS ALOT LIKE ME SHY ,QUIET TYPE WITH NOT ALOT OF SOCIAL EXPERIENCES TYO CALL UPON SO IF YOU HAVE ANYTHING THAT MIGHT LIVEN UP MY CHARACTERS LET ME KNOW) CONSTRUCTIVE CRITISMISMS ARE ALWAYS WELCOMED. ALSO IF YOU WANT ME TO CONTINUE THIS STORY LINE ALSO ADVISE ME.

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