I'M SOMEBODY

BY PHILLIP ROBBINS

HERE IT IS AT LAST, THE LAST YEAR IN HIGH SCHOOL I'M A SENIOR AT FAIRFIELD HIGH. I'M 5'11" BLOND HAIR AND BLUE EYES AND WEIGH IN ABOUT 195. MY PROBLEM I'M LIKE INVISIBLE TO THE REST OF THE WORLD IT SEEMS. I'M SUPER SHY AND BASICALLY A LONER SO I HAVE LITTERALLY NO FREINDS TO SPEAK OF. I DON'T SOCIALIZE WITH ANY OF THE STUDENTS AT SCHOOL AND SIT IN BACK OF THE CLASS. I DON'T GO TO ANY GAMES , AND I DON'T PLAY ANY SPORTS, I DON'T PARTICIPATE IN ANY EXTRACIRICULLIA ACTIVITIES OF THE SCHOOL. LIKE IF I HAVE TO GIVE AN ORAL BOOK REPORT I PLAY SICK THAT DAY AND SKIP SCHOOL. I'D RATHER TAKE THE "F" FOR THE DAY THAN GET IN FRONT OF THE CLASS FOR ANY REASON. LATTER I WOULD BEG THE TEACHER IF I COULD JUST DO A WRITTEN REPORT INSTEAD. ITS NOT THAT I WAS DUMB OR ANYTHING BECAUSE I HAD HIGH MARKS IN ALL MY CLASSES THAT DIDN'T REQUIRE ANYTHING AS FAR AS ORAL PRESENTATIONS. OUTSIDE OF ENGLISH CLASS AT CERTAIN TIMES OR COMPOSITION CLASS WERE ANYTHING AS SAID ENVOLVING SPEECHES AND THE LIKE I HAD EXCELLING GRADES. YOU SEE I WOULD GET SO EMBARRESSED I WOULD TURN BEET RED AND START STUTTERING AND SOME WOULD LAUGH. THIS MADE ME FEEL STUPID SO I DID EVERYTHING I COULD TO GET OUT OF IT.

HOWEVER MUCH TO MY CHAGRIN THIS AND MY LIFE WAS GOINGTO CHANGE DRAMTICALLY. OH, YA MY NAME IS CLIFFORD DRAKE.

I WAS IN ENGLISH CLASS WHEN THE ANNOUNCEMENT CAME OVER THE PA SYSTEM BY THE PRINIPAL OF THE SCHOOL,." ANY STUDENTS FAILING IN ANY CLASS OR CLASSES WOULD BE REQUIRED TO BE TUTORED IN THAT CLASS BY A STUDENT OF THE CLASS THAT THE TEACHER RECOMMENDED FOR IT. THE FOLLOWING STUDENTS AFTER SCHOOL PLEASE REPORT TO CLASS ROOM # 55" . THERE WAS A LIST OF ABOUT 30 STUDENTS UNFORTUNATLY MY NAME WAS ONE OF THE LAST TO BE CALLED. "OH SHIT ," I THOUGHT "I KNOW ITS BECAUSE OF THE ORAL'S I WAS SUPPOSED TO GIVE AND SKIPPED ON ." FOR SOME ODD REASON I WASN'T ABLE TO TALK THE TEACHER INTO WRITTEN AS I HAD IN PREVIOUS YEARS SO WERE I SHOULD HAVE HAD AN "A" I WAS SEEING A "D" FOR MY GRADE AVERAGE IN COMPOSITION 2 . UNFORTUNATLY ENGLISH CLASS WAS THE LAST CLASS OF THE DAY.

WHEN THE DISMISSAL BELL RANG AND EVERYONE STARTED TO HEADING OUT THE DOOR , MR WILSON THE ENGLISH TEACHER WAS ALSO MY COMP2 TEACHER STOPPED ME . "CLIFFORD ,YOUR A VERY BRIGHT GUY WITH ALOT OF POTENTIAL BUT YOU NEED THIS HELP. I'VE ASIGNED SOMEONE THAT ACTUALLY VOLLUNTERED TO TUTOR YOU . PLEASE TAKE ADVANTAGE OF THIS TUTORS HELP." I JUST NODDED MY HEAD AND STARTED FOR CLASS ROOM # 55 . I SAT GLUMMLY LOOKING DOWN AT MY FEET WHEN A VERY DEFINED SET OF FEMALE LEGS APPEARED STANDING BEFORE ME. AND A DEFINITLY FEMALE VOICE SAYING," YOUR CLIFFORD DRAKE AREN'T YOU?" I QUICKLY LOOKED UP AND ALMOST FELL OUT OF MY SEAT FOR THERE STANDING BEFORE ME WAS LISA HARRISON

THE HEAD CHEERLEADER OF THE VARSITY CHEER SQUAD AND ONE OF THE MOST POPULAR GIRLS IN SCHOOL

I EMMEDIATLY BLUSHED BEET RED AS I TRIED NOT TO STUTTER AS I SAID ."Y YE YESSS..." MR. WILSON HAS SORT OF FILLED ME IN ON YOUR SITUATION SO AS TO WHAT HELP YOU NEED SO I KNOW ALITTLE ABOUT YOU . THAT YOUR AN ALMOST STRAIGHT "A" STUDENT EXCEPT FOR YOU ORAL'S IS THAT RIGHT?" I DIDN'T WANT TO SPEAK SO I JUST NODDED . LISA LOOKED AT ME AND GAVE A SORT OF FROWN, "WE'RE GOING TO HAVE TO WORK ON THAT" I DIDN'T KNOW WHAT TO DO ,

HERE I HAD THE MOST POPULAR GIRL IN SCHOOL TALKING TO ME AND WANTING ME TO TALK BACK TO HER. "I.. IMMMM.. SOR.. SORRY, I.. I.. STUT...STUTTER A A LOT.. WH... WHENNN.. I..I GET NER..NERVOUS" I ANSWERED. "THATS OK, THATS WHAT WE'RE HERE TO WORK ON IS GET YOU TO WERE YOU CAN DO YOUR ORALS." I LOOKED AT LISA AND BLUSHED AGAIN AS I SAID," I.. I'M ..

T TO SHI..SHY T TO SA SAY ANYTHING IN N.. FRON.. FRONT OF P PE PEOPLE WI WITH OW OUT

IT SIS SOUNDING STU STUPID AN AND LA LAUGHING A AT M...ME.." LISA LOOKED AT ME ODDLY AND SAID." I CAN SEE I HAVE MY WORK CUT OUT FOR ME BUT WE'RE GOING TO WORK THROUGHT THIS OK." I STARTED TO NOD AGAIN WHEN SHE SMILED AND THEN LOOKING STERN SAID ,"OK!" I BLINKED AND SAID "OH.. OH..OK" SHE SUDDENLY SMILED AND SAID ,"GOOD WE'RE MAKING SOME HEADWAY NOW. WE HAVE TO DO THIS EVERYDAY AFTER CLASS THAT I DON'T HAVE CHEER PRACTICE SO OUR NEXT TUTORING SESSION WILL BE DAY AFTER TOMMORROW OK. I AGAIN STARTED TO NOD WHEN I CAUGHT HER EXPRESSION AND STUTTERED OUT MY OK. I STARTED THINKING AFTER SHE LEFT THE CLASS ROOM AND I STARTED HOME . I DON'T HINK I'VE SPOKEN THAT MANY WORDS IN A YEAR BUT SHE MADE ME SPEAK ALOT IT SEEMED. I WONDER WHY SHE WAS SO MOVED TO VOLUNTEER TO TUTOR ME . ACTUALLY SHE SEEMED VERY GOOD AT DOING JUST THAT .

AS USUAL I WAS IN ONE OF MY MOODS AND CUT COMP2 CLASS AND MY 2ND TUTORAL WITH LISA. WHEN ABOUT 4 PM MY DOOR BELL RANG. WHEN I OPENED THE DOOR THERE STOOD LISA WITH A LOOK OF , WELL I WASN'T SURE WHAT KIND OF A LOOK IT WAS BUT I KNEW THAT MAYBE I GOOFED. "CLIFFORD IF YOU EXPECT TO PASS MR. WILSON CLASSES YOUR GOING TO ATTEND THE TUTORIALS UNDERSTOOD." SHE SAID THEM WITH A LITTLE TENGE OF ANGRE BUT AT THE SAME TIME IT WASN'T, IT WAS CONFUSING TO ME . SHE LOOKED AT ME AND SAID, "ARE YOU GOING TO INVITE ME IN OR NOT?" AGAIN I ALMOST FORGOT AND STARTED TO NOD WHEN I SAW HER EXPRESSION AND AGAIN STUTTERED OUT MY YES. "OK, LETS GET STARTED " SHE STATED. INSTEAD OF BEING 45 MINUTES LIKE IT WOULD HAVE BEEN AT SCHOOL SHE WAS THERE UNTIL 6 PM. JUST BEFORE SHE LEFT THOUGH THIS IS WHAT SHE TOLD ME. CLIFFORD DO YOU WANT TO KNOW WHY I VOLUNTEERED TO TUTOR YOU SPECIFICALY. I STARTED TO SHAKE MY HEAD NO AND STUTTERING QUICKLY OUT A "NO". DID YOU KNOW THAT HALF THE GIRLS IN HIGH SCHOOL THINK YOUR A BIT OF AN IGNEGMA AND VERY MYSTERIOUS. THIS CAUGHT ME BY SURPRISE I SAID ,"WHAT!!!!" SHE LOOKED VERY PLEASED WITH HERSELF. THEN I T DAWNED ON ME I HAD SAID "WHAT" WITHOUT STUTTERING AT ALL. "WE NOW KNOW YOU CAN SAY SOMETHINGS WITHOUT STUTTERING" WITH A SLIGHT GIGGLE, "BUT TO GET BACK TO WHAT I WAS SAYING, YOU'VE GOTTEN HALF THE GIRLS IN SCHOOL WONDERING ABOUT YOU AND THATS A VERY DANGEROUS POSITION FOR A GUY TO BE IN." I BROKE IN AND FORCED MYSELF NOT TO STUTTER WHEN I SAID SLOWLY , "WWHYY.." THERE ARE SOME GIRLS WHO WOULD LIKE TO DO NOTHING BETTER THAN CRACK OPEN A QUIET SHY MYSTERIOUS GUY JUST TO SEE WHAT MAKES HIM TICK. AGAIN VERY SLOWLY I STARTED TO SAY, "WWHOO MEE" I SPOKE SLOWLY. SHE LOOKED AT ME AND SMILED AND SAID ,"YES YOU ,YOU DOPE