Moce Soulmates

Chapter 1: Tears

I'm crying again... Why am I crying? Oh, I am thinking of him again, that's why. It's not really a bad thing I guess, I just miss him so damn much, it hurts sometimes. I don't try to hide it on purpose, I just have to be strong, for him, and I'm sick of crying all the time, soon I will tear blood...Oh well, like that would ever happen.

I'm just sitting here, on my bed, wishing he was with me, I do it almost everyday, but I try not to let myself get too sad or I might lose it. He does make me happy, more then anything in the world, but doing it this way can be so hard. I've only ever cried like that maybe once or twice, so, I guess I am really strong, like he says to me all the time.

Sometimes, I don't even know where we're going, or how to even get there, but, the only thing I can do is just, be there for him, and let things take it's own destiny I suppose. He's been truly amazing to me, it's been 5 months and not once has it been really horrible, at least between us it hasn't. We're so perfect for each other. I guess, something in the back of my mind kicked in, that its been a full week after he was suppose to come visit me. So, maybe I will be alright after this. I can't wait to see him tomorrow, or maybe he will come online again tonight, who knows. I got to see his face at least, after all this time, so beautiful, makes me just want to melt into his arms and shut everything else out.

Oh dear, here I go again....

I lay there in my bed on the shirt Steve sent me, just crying my eyes out wanting to hold him so bad. I knew things would be better now, that I finally found the one. Oh Steve, how I love you so much....

My birthday was coming up also, and lately it's always been horrible, but I don't really care anymore, I don't need one anyways, only Steve. I wonder what things Steve has for me, I'm sure it will make me the happiest poobug there is.

"Steve..."

My voice cracked, as I drifted off to sleep now, wondering if it will take me to the Dream Island where I could finally see him, and stay with him forever, wouldn't that be amazing. It's been proven many times that he's the only one who makes me truly happy and wanted, and loved. Gosh, I miss you so much. Steve...

My tears soaked and drenched the entire pillow I was sleeping on, at that moment, I was already wearing the shirt in my undies, grasping firm at my gemstone cross. My mind starting to drift away, deep into where we first met, and all of those memories we've shared, and soon, very soon, it will only get better, but for now, I will shed these final tears I have, for you, for us, so we can be happy. They are not tears of complete sorrow, so that's not a bother.

I giggled just then, sometimes I find myself talking like you too baby, I love you...