I live it the land of difference
Where 'god' and 'ala'
Seem to be synonymous with hatred
Cuz I'm fighting wars with serpents
And eating my own tail
I have been caught into this cycle
Grinding up this bible
To lace my cigarettes with it
Sacred smoke, believing I can speak
With ashes falling out of my mouth
Ashes of angel wings,
But I am god's advocate
And I fight holy wars because of it.
I look across borders
And it appears that I'm looking in the mirror.
We spend hours like this
Trying to find some sort of distinction
None, so we kill for freedom anyway.
And I died shamefully at the mercy of my own god
While you laughed
While you laughed and said you were a martyr
Killing to the tee
Uninspired by your Father's law
Persecution our own lives
Sacrificing myself for sitting in a bus station
At 2 am and hearing gun shots in ym head
Making my way through the sphinx riddle streets of my brain
And whoring myself out
To whatever god who comes along
That has bullets with him
Dripping in my own blood
Willing to sacrifice myself for the
Words I heard in opium dens
Words like salvation
And freedom
Words that come second nature to me
In Ireland, Berlin, Palestine, Iraq.
I become the willing victim
Of every holy land ever written
On my spine
This body, murdering itself into sainthood
Killing my children because they pray eastward.
And blowing up Eden
With bombs made out of hatred and hymns
My war basks in my own religion
Toppling columns of sand onto sinners
You lock up virtue in your heart.
While I revel in my own sins
Staring at portraits of myself on crosses
And wishing I was torn apart.