There's a crawling deep inside—
A worm that I cannot hide.
I'd erase that part of who I am—
Fill my hot desire with sand;
Take that worm and feed it to Him—
And never love a soul again.
I had the crazy notion in mind
That He could have it, I wouldn't mind.
I can't run away from this fiend
He rapes me with this dream.
My emptiness could starve the ocean.
I throb for what could have been.
There must be a soul inside me.
I can feel it squirm around,
Mixed with devoted lust
For what my blood can never touch.
My feelings are still inside
For the worm I'll never hide.
The dreams won't come true,
But what can I do?