i'm trying to fight away the tears,

and i'm blinking,

i'm blinking,

and i'm trying,

/0/

i can't find a way to escape this loneliness,

the silence is deafing,

and all i want to hear is your voice,

and everything reminds me of you,

/0/

i hear the ringtone i set for you,

but it's always someone new,

i just want to be with you,

with you,

/0/

your texts aren't coming,

and i can't help but feel once again,

that no one even cares about me,

and i just want to feel something,

/0/

just kiss me right now,

and i promise i'll forget everything,

tell me nothing,

and just hold me,

/0/

i want to feel nothing,

but love,

and i know the tears are coming down now,

i can't stop them,

/0/

i can't stop them,

because i'm never good at anything,

i'll never change,

for as long as i live,

/0/

i don't want to think about anything,

i just want to make everything better,

can't you just make everything better?

i want something to be simple for once,

/0/

i can't understand you,

but i still want to hear you,

and i breathe deeper,

because i know i can't see you,

/0/

i wonder how lovely it would be to sleep soundlessly for once,

and have someone there to wake up with,

but i always go to bed cold,

alone,

/0/

nothing is ever going to change,

this is going to end soon,

i'm running away,

and never coming back,

/0/

rip a hole right through my chest,

and you wouldn't even care,

don't you even pretend to get me back,

i won't come back,

/0/

i won't last long,

and trust me, i know that,

but just give me a chance alone,

like i have been all of my life,

/0/

i just want to go back to my normal,

empty life,

it just seems fitting,

and i don't want to remember you,

/0/

cutting off is the best thing to do,

but my heart is too weak to do it,

gosh, my whole BODY is too weak to do it,

and i hate myself throughly,

/0/

but nothing in the world can change that,

and i wish i could be something,

i wish i could be beautiful,

and the perfect girl,

/0/

but i know i'm nothing,

and i need to be alone,

it's my destiny,

can't you see that?

/0/

and i still want your arms around me,

just to feel that you want me,

even if it's a lie,

or if you're completely transparent,

/0/

i don't care anymore,

and all i can think of is you,

and the rain,

it fits,

/0/

and i wish that i could be happy,

i know how much you hate that,

((do you even like me?))

i wish that you would just hate me,

/0/

but you want to randomly be with me,

and i want to scream at the top of my lungs,

something's telling me,

that you'll freak out,

/0/

i don't like the idea of you leaving first,

so maybe i'll do it for you,

and i'll make it quick,

i'll make you better,

/0/

i might just fall to pieces,

baby, just lift me up,

into your arms,

and you know i'll stay there,

/0/

but you're still not here.