I'm sorry I ruined everything for you!
today i found a dead dog lying on the side of the road, and i thought that it was silly of all these stupid college applications and these really fucking stupid classes and essays i have to dole out of my ass because i'm going to end up dead anyway, and i don't really want to waste half my life in an office hating myself.
I don't know how i managed to make ohio sound glamorous, but i guess when it comes down to it it's just this notion of LEAVING, far far away and starting again. and spilling milk and curling up at the kitchen and taking the bus! and white skys and spontaneous trips across the border to canada and seeing moose! and hey when we get there i can fall asleep in the car with my book and you can kiss me in the morning despite my bad breath ha. and we can laugh the entire way home and texas can suck my big fat tit because we'll be living in shitty cleveland until one of us has the balls to say, "let's fucking move!" because we can do that, you know. and we can still have food fights and order out because i burnt the toast again. and i'll have a nice comfy bed which you can sleep in, if you want. and running around the apartment, my feet will always be cold.
"in your dreams" is like my audio bible.
YOU CAN TOTALLY RELATE WITH ME!
i like how i'm actually yelling inside my head for this because i'm very much nervous but i don't know for what.
confrontation time? or this the part when i get thrown deeper inside the rabbit hole, maybe?
i want for him not to ask take so much and give nothing in return. boys suck. girls rule.
and i really hate the way he tries to make it seem like he's not doing anything "bad" and he's not "Making me" but shit if i could kill myself and wake up in a place where he didn't exist that would be really great, thanks.
I had you back, but then you ran, like you never ever knew me. Fall back into my arms again, like you always wanted to, but you never ever knew.