Bittersweet

I hate feelings
every last one
Happiness, begins pain, pain brings hate...
I pray to become numb,

loveless, an empty shell that wants nothing.
Yet I want to feel your lips.
Bittersweet, this is
I fear your eyes, the window to your soul
Sweet sensations dies
The bitterness remains
My eyes water as you make me cry
Funny thing is I only knew you for a day
Yet my heart is breaking in eons of pain.

You never called
as I told myself I wouldn't wait around for your call.
This is what my heart promised when I said yes to everything you wanted.
And I'm happy that you're happy
but you lied when you said you wouldn't be like the rest.

And yes, your not like them
you are worst
you infected my heart
you stole my soul
you imprisoned me.