My Smile

I cry myself to sleep tonight

Knowing no one will be there to hld me

Thinking why should i love

When all it seams I do is cry any more

I sit by myself now a days

With no one by my side

I have a hole in my heart that cant be filled

And I'm dieing inside

I'm binded to myself i cant talk to any one

I'm afraid to get out , to let out

Sometimes I want to sit in a corroner

And scream

I feel lost

Without anyone to comfort me

Im unsafe I feel like hiding

I leel like he dosn't love understand at all

He saids he loves me

But I wonder how he could possably love me when he makes me cry

It feels like he enjoys my tears

Enjoys my pain

I awake in the morning and go to school

i hide my pain behind my smile

I'm shunning the world slowly

10/22/09

Christina L Anderson