I wait to see that moment again

when I'm with her I can do nothing

but laugh

not a simple giggle or smile

a laugh that continues for a while

I talk to her everyday

but we don't see each other much

when we do we chat a little bit

its her company that gives me pleasure

I see the scars she's hiding

I smile because now I know I am not alone

Is it so wrong to want her to suffer to?

We can go through this pain together

What a very unhealthy relation-ship

I tried many times to just pretend

I see you holding my gaze

we laugh

Its both our little secret

the world doesn't know

and I'll never tell