i want to
cut
i want to
breathe again
i want to feel
(dis)connected.

i want to
cut
i want to
break myself apart
i want to feel
the pain (disappearing).

i want to
cut
i want to
cry until i can't cry anymore
i want to feel
myself drifting away.

i want to
cut.

i want to
die.

i don't want to feel
a damn thing
at all.