What If Rivals Start to Fall in Love?

The world was on fire no one could save me but you. Strange what desire will make foolish people do. I never dreamed that I'd meet somebody like you. And I never dreamed that I'd lose somebody like you.

-'Wicked Game' Chris Issak

Calling your name, I hear only echoes, searching the rain I see only shadows, you've got to show me your face. Voices, I hear them calling behind me, phantoms of you are burning inside me, you've got to give me a sign.

-'Running Blind' t.A.T.u

Love me for who I am...I'm yours...I regret what I said, I was scared and upset, and I've made a mistake, I accept all the blame...Won't you please just love me and hold me?

-'All My Love' t.A.T.u

Mixed feelings, I'm not myself, I'm spinning like snow, I find myself...And they dream in their sleep, small fires in January...And it's a complete trap, lunacy, like a game of spinning tops, start spinning the game, all my love.

-'Vsya Moya Lyubov (All My Love)' t.A.T.u [translated]

Just stay with me forever, our hearts are sewn together; using needle and thread, made of three words I said: "I love you." So now lay me to rest, because next to you, my nightmares turn to dreams at their best.

-'Dreams at Their Best' November Blessing

I'd like to think I wouldn't die for you, but you know I would 'cause that's the fool I am, and that's the rule you bend.

-'My Fairweather Friend' Emilie Autumn

Fear no more the midnight, fear no more the sea, close your eyes, regret nothing, you're safe with me...I have put my faith in aberrations of your kind, but even if you're in my mind...I don't need this blind acceptance, I have made my choice.

-'Across the Sky' Emilie Autumn


I'm trying to find the words to express how I feel, my love. The words that will put what has been bouncing around my head down on paper. Gather the scraps of paper that I scribble at midnight to you. The love letters and poems that I write to and for you, my muse.

Who are you? What have you done to me? What spell have you cast over me? Is there a counter-spell?

Love isn't logical. If it was I could simply think my way out of this mess. The more I think about this situation the harder I fall. You have me in your perfectly-spun web.

This is an issue about trust and I trust no one. Until I met you and now I want to know all about you. You make me want things and it's scary, because I have no control over this. Is this real? Am I dreaming?

You tell me I have my walls and that you have your window if all else fails, but love, I realize that I am free for once. I've been hiding my whole life and you make me want to let go and fly. I realize I am a contradiction in many ways, when I both run to and flee from you like a wild doe.

I should stay away from you since in the end we both know I'll get hurt, and my friends don't like you. I don't want to stay away from you, because I think you're worth the risk. You've already broken my heart once and love, I've forgiven that (now to only put it behind me).

When we fight sometimes it's because I really want to fight you. I want to make you jealous so you'll put your hands all over me. I am playing these games that I've only ever heard from girls in the bathroom during high school, and my flirtations from those days are my only experiences. Our games have gone from sizing each other as potential rivals-mates to something much deeper, that I'm just starting to scratch the surface of this love between us.

The thing is I feel like I'm a junkie and you're the ultimate fix. The thing is this is all brand-new to me, and I'm terrified that I'm too fucked up for you. I'm scared that I'm just some random girl, that you barely remember my name. You make me nervous, very nervous- what if I'm really not good enough for you? Yet you make me want to let go and go with the flow.