Failure

Past humiliations always

Spin in my head

The only thing that kills

Me is

Failure

I always strive for perfection

Mistakes aren't possible

I am afraid of failure

The little reminders of

Not being good enough

I yearn to be normal

To handle mistakes without it

Blowing up in my face

They say mistakes help you

Learn

But they destroy me

I am one of those who's

Sole purpose in life is

Avoid failure and live in

Perfection but I know it will

Never happen

My fear will never disappear

So I live in the quest

To never meet eye to

eye with

Failure