You can't spend your life trying to be someone you're not

And you can't spend your life trying to meet the standards of a stranger

And part of me

Maybe even the bigger part

Knows this

But there's always going to be that feeling in my gut that tells me

If I could be like that

If I could say what I want to say with so much


That it hits you

Like a deer shattering the glass

And you don't know

How to be afraid for a moment

Until it sets in

And I'll probably tell you not to try to be something you're not

That the only person you should be pleasing is yourself

But I don't believe that

I don't believe half the things I say

Things like

It'll get better

There's nothing wrong

I love you

I'm sorry

Words are just words out loud

Don't you get it

They don't matter until silenced

Until pensive and passionate

And striving to be better

To say what you mean in a better way

What I'm trying to say is

In the end


Just wants to be someone else