It's a Stupid Question, Yeah.

What's this trap that has me?
It's oh so, oh so sticky,
the thought someone could love me.
I fall into my dreams.

I know where I am headed,
and I look ahead, but
the web that I am caught in
has me circling for love.

Why does the thought of your smile
make me feel high?
When will I learn?
When will I stop trying to earn your love?

But I want you to want me,
I want you to love me,
because for one moment,
you are my prince charming.

I checked my email,
and you never called my phone.
Everyone is paired up
and I've no one to hold.

Where am I right now, and why?
I'm in between, and waiting,
wishing and praying.
Everything comes to nothing
and days drag endlessly.

Why wont you love me?
It's a stupid question, yeah.

Then again, I'm just a stupid girl.

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Author's Note: You know when you start talking to a guy, and then you like that guy, and then you get your hopes up? And then he doesn't like you back, and you're crushed, and you vow to be smarter next time?

But then you start talking to another guy and, against your will, the cycle begins again?

That's the loop I'm trying to break out of. It's the loop where love is always "just around the corner..." but when you turn the corner, you realize you're going in circles and there's no way to stop. Has anyone else ever felt this way?

"[God's] word is a lamp to my feet and a light to my path."--Psalm 119:105. The thing about lamps is that they only illuminate what's right in front of you, and not far off. Usually, far off is where I want to see. I know I'm not the only one having trouble waiting.

Happy almost-Valentine's Day!