Frozen

So easy, count the numbers, then
Retreat back to your silent den.
Ignore the voices, whisper in your ear
Sweet temptations for you to hear.

Empty, sweet strength makes you so weak,
Ignoring each concerned critique.
Expensive porcelain, perilous addiction,
Result of many weeks' restriction.

Lighter than air, forget I was here,
I'm struggling more than I do appear.
Simple red lines sometimes help with the pain,
Blue water streams in each little vein.

Cold, stuck, lost in fear,
The addiction's growing more severe.
Break me free please, I am unable,
And each day I grow more unstable.

Double-figures, final reward,
Reached that which I had long adored.
Winter frozen, caught between death
And life, with each icy breath

I grow closer, close to the end.
They've noticed, now I can't pretend
Anymore that I'm fine, all right, okay,
No, now I'm just a broken cliché.