Finding Strength

I can't tolerate

this pain I hold anymore;

I wish I could

erase it from my being.

I serve those

who hate me;

Love those

who hurt me.

I'm so afraid

of the people around me;

So afraid

to be me.

I can't let them know

the pain I suppress;

Can't let you see

how much you hurt me.

I have to draw

my strength from within;

The inspiration

to keep me going.

Where is it?