you can never be someone's first everything. it's

hard to not fall a little in love with everyone, then you

want to be their first kiss, their first love, their first final

plunge into the hot shower of 'we're done'. you can never go back

to the first moment you felt that tingle, the building anticipation, the

first time you wanted to stay and the first time you desperately

wanted to go. you can't be the first fuck, the first

one to hold their hand, first surprise. you can never be first place,

only the second second fiddle to everyone who came before. it's hard

to not fall a little in love with everyone you shouldn't, you're a

little in love with everyone you love, a little in love with everyone.