Beautiful Madness

This beautiful madness holding me captive,
Lunacy I want and can't live without.
The best mistake I ever did make,
I'll keep it going 'til I pass out.

My heartbeat it's fast, and then far too slow,
Can't handle or take it, please let me
Break free from the suffering, take it away,
I've forgotten how being alive could feel.

Sometimes I wonder, when did things go wrong,
How did I get like this, so messed up inside?
Could it be helped, was it my fault,
Too many questions, please let me hide

Away from it all, the hurt and the pain,
I don't want anymore, and yet I am stuck,
I'm losing the will to make it all go away,
How long will it be before I lose all my luck?

It's funny, you're there, wanting to save me,
I avoid and I lie to cover my sadness,
Then I call for help once, and you're not there,
And it all comes down to my beautiful madness.