i know how i look
with the headphones in
and my eyes cast down:
the only reason
those headphones are always there
is my only sanctuary
my only escape
my only way away from
the turmoil of my family life
the embarrassment of my social life
the disappointment i have in myself
and while it's lonely looking alone
it's better than facing head-on
what i really want to escape from.
---a/n: not to worry, no suicide. promise. but sometimes, i just wonder what it might be like to not have to deal with all this anymore.