Dangling graceful fingers catch my eye
They hang from the limp arm swinging by the chair arm ever so slow
They're tinged red from the heavy loads been carried
And yet softly moving like they never met any struggles
The diaphragm drops feet, it seems, a dark pit forming inside
I feel your delicate touch on the crowning of my shoulder
But you're sitting three feet away.
Is it so hard to remember?
The tender embrace of my clasp around your neck when we danced?
How you pulled me so close when I was at my worst and wept into your chest?
I wish so hard that I could scream at you to turn around, to look at me and smile
But your back is all that I will see for now
Deeply breathing, strong shoulder blades separating, but always coming back together on the exhale
I melt at the memory of your caring hands encompassing my own two
The way the sun caught your cinnamon hair and made it shine like gold
The peak of your head resting against mine when we were too timid to kiss
And now you sit away from me like nothing ever occurred
A deep inhale- a yawn? Dark circles swim beneath your twilight eyes
I wonder if you've been losing sleep with me on your mind
Or if it's just me
How I know that I'm being stupid, that's I'm chasing something I just can't reach
Yet it scares me to think that we could never be again
I'm sorry that I changed myself for you
I'm sorry that I can't let you go
I'm sorry that you push me away