lately around the house
there's been a lot of talk about
back braces and back surgery and
"dangerous degrees of spinal curvature".
there's been a lot of talk about
spinal cysts and spinal fluid
vertebrae and steel rods and
potential surgery dates.
hospitals and and x-rays and time.
and suddenly my back pain is a
big
deal.

i think i'm the only one that knows
the pain isn't
scoliosis
like they ruled out or
spinal cysts
like they proved,
that itchy pain between my shoulder blades
isn't anything seen on an MRI.

it's just that i used to have
wings
and now they're
gone.
and i'm here,
and i'm stuck,
and if i'm here,
then i'm
fucked.