What Can I Do?
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I am at a loss of what to do
When it comes to you
You confuse me sometimes,
But I know I want to see you smile
And know that that smile is true...
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But let me ask this
How do you make someone smile,
When you are the cause of their distress?
When you are the one causing it,
Over something you can't help?
Do you still feel guilt,
Even if it can't be helped?
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Are you to blame from the start
For the longing and suffering at times in their heart
Because you took on playing a part
Utterly different and new to you
But you knew
That they were already in deeper than you?
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How do you make them happy
When you both know
That at times, they would suffer the pain,
Regardless of whether they are with you
Or without you
Because either way,
They love you?
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How do you make them laugh
When a show of affection on a given day
A sweet, caring gesture
Could have the possibility
Of making their ache worse
And you might never even know?
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They tell you it's fine
It's alright
It can't be helped
They'll wait...
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But they've spoken of wanting to hear
Those words returned
And you just know
That they are desperately longing
For that day to come...
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What do you do
When you speak so boldly
Of not wanting them to be hurt
But you can't help but hurt them
And you know that it's worse
Than if it they were hurt
By anyone of less importance?
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What do you do,
What can you do?
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\To make that smile completely real
And not a mask, hiding sadness?
To be there completely
To whisper away their other torments
Without being one yourself?
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What can you do?
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So that those words
Become true to you
So you can repeat them
And make their world brighter?
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What can you do?
What can I do?
So that I can say,
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"I love you..."
AN: I wrote this poem based on some actual events in my life. Things seem to be working out; this poem was more out of venting one day. Hope you've enjoyed. =)
P.S. Forgive all the little stars...I was fighting a losing battle to get the spaces to stay between the paragraphs.