debating
anxiously anticipating
your next move
waiting
on you, waiting for
something to change
another piece to fall
into place
wanting
to fix the broken shards
but knowing
you won't
hoping
you'll open your mind,
open your heart
but living in fear because
you're closed off
you're too far away
you're too sure of this
nothingness
to even try, to even
give me this chance
so i'm
breaking
myself apart for
you, struggling
to hold on
to you,
afraid
to let go
of you,
because you're
my everything; i'm
shaking
so hard i'm
trying
to fall apart, i'm
trying to break into
a million tiny pieces
because without
you & your (lies of)
love, i'm
suffocating
on the air i'm
breathing
& i'm
falling
into a pit of darkness
so deep i can't see
the end

a/n: please don't let this be the end.