I can feel myself

f
a
l
l
i
n
g

again
(free fall
face first,
to the bloodied bottom)

It's different this time

I suppose
It's been a while
Since its been for
Someone else

Can I forget about
You yet?
Am I ready to?

I've missed this swooping
Feeling
Missed these unbidden
Smiles
Missed this jittery
Happiness
(is it happiness?)
(would glee be
a more informed choice?)

Unexpected
I can't say that
I was looking for
This

Not two days since
You'd left my world
(and he came into it)
Not now
Two months since
You traded places
(figuratively of course)
It was accidental

I can't say that
I'm certain yet

But seeing his face
(lets have that again)
His face
Gives me that
Sighing bounce
I'd come to associate
With you
and only you
(that same one that
kept me company
for these three years past
and that same one
i'd come to hate
and then love again
and then hate
again)

Yep
I'm falling
Again
(unrealistically
misguidedly
unwisely
foolishly
recklessly
uncontrollably
carelessly
heedlessly
Again)

I guess I must have
Detached my heart from
You
After all
Because I can say
That it's not for you
For the
First time
It's not for you