I should have seen this coming, should have known by that patented look on your face. It was all going wrong; it was all falling away from my fingertips. My happiness. The breath returned to my lungs as you stepped away, each step flooding my airways with oxygen. Reaching out, you're already too far, and I'm cemented in this hell. The knives in my stomach twist around, as if in a washing machine. Torture rains over me like the plague. This was only the shallow end, but I'm still drowning, the ocean floods over my head, flushing me with air. Surprisingly, it's harder to breathe; I'm on life support and dying.
"If nothing else, you should save yourself."
No, I'm screaming, but my mouth has been sewn shut. I watch you leaving, tortured by the image. Please God no, don't leave me in this hell again. The chains bind me to the wall, it's impossible to think. The silence is louder than I ever felt. Falling into the darkness, you fade to light, and flicker off. I lash out, trying to rip the blindfold off, only to nearly gouge my eyes out. The prison walls cut into me like the knives dancing in my stomach. Blood spills from my veins, my skin no longer able to defend. My thrashes rubbing it raw.
"I'm down on my knees, why did you leave?"
The walls close in, the ceiling is falling I swear. The darkness is humming that familiar lullaby, I'm submitting to its ways. My eyes slide shut no difference in light. The blood dried, long ago. My crimson song, overrun by chords of sorrow. I've given up, knowing you won't be back. No one ever comes back, so now I'll just wait. Wait another millennium until someone notices the locked door at the top of the stairs. Wait until someone's curiosity overrides their senses. The darkness says I'm one of the luck few.
"It feels like forever."