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Jake put the drinks on his dresser. Expertly, he neared me and placed his hands on my waist tenderly.

Should I do this? I was starting to get second thoughts.

He gently leaned into my ear.

"I love you." He whispered. As if.

My heart pounded with fear as Jake unzipped my jeans slowly.

Oh shit. I was so freaking scared. There was no need to remove my top, we were just trying to get me pregnant.

He wrapped his arms around me, and kissed my head. For a minute we stood there, him breathing into my hair.

"Get in bed." Jake ordered.

"Wait," I hesitated. "We should talk about..."

He quickly covered my lips with his finger.

"Just do it." He said with a sexy, raspy voice.

I did obediently, like a dog. I waited for him and he removed his pants. I didn't dare look. Jake got in bed and my heart skipped a beat. What the hell was I doing?

Underneath the covers he gently removed my panties and then his boxers. Shit, shit. Shit.

After a while, Jake rolled over on top of me. I had my eyes closed and I could feel the sweat running down my face.

"Don't be nervous," He said while carressing my cheek. I did not reply. I just kept my eyes glued shut and my body was stiff. I heard him whisper to loosen up and relax.

It was then that I felt my tears rolling over my cheeks. SHIT! He rubbed them away softly before positioning him self on top of me. Supporting himself with one hand on each side of my head.

I felt him begin to move...and more tears flowing out of my eyes.

Then we actually did it. It.He deflowered me.

The pain was so great, but I held it in. After a while I was actually enjoying it. And soon we both reached or climax.

That is when he got off of me.

I was no longer a virgin. But that was the least of my worries. After that he held onto me. We just laid in his bed awkwardly not saying a word.

After we were dressed I decided to go straight home. I didn't look Jake straight in the eye. He looked so much different now that we had eachothers virginity(though I was positive he WASN'T a virgin before this).

"So are you leaving now?" He asked, picking up his beer.

"Yeah." I mumbled zipping my jeans back up.

"That's a shame. You didn't finish your beer." He smirked.

I didn't look at him, I just left.

The walk home was long and painful. When did I plan on telling my mom? What if I didn't get pregnant...what if Jake wasn't a virgin even before we had sex?

What if he had aids? No that's no possible. I would have to wait to get signs of pregnancy...what ever those were.

What if I didn't have an active egg in me? I wasn't on my period...so that's a good thing...right?

I honestly did not know shit about pregnancy.

I was such an idiot.