if only i were beautiful

enough for you to see

the light they say's inside my heart

see what they see in me.

if only i could take a risk

and maybe impress you somehow,

but i'm afraid that i will fail

and that i'll let you down.

if only i could be myself

and stop being so afraid

to show you the amazing things i am,

maybe you'd stay another day.


a/n: on disappointment in myself - obviously i'm not good enough, that's why my dad doesn't want to spend time with me. what other reason is there to pretend i don't exist?