I might pretend

but I won't forget

A ghost of pain,

still clinging

A refusal

to let go.

The sunlight

makes me shine,

but it's the darkness

where I thrive.

Gray skies

rain, falling

like tears

soaking my hair

dripping off my face.

They are free.

The sky

can cry

my tears for me.

I want to be done,

yet the end

is nowhere near.

The scars left within

the depths of my heart

The thin, promising memories

time won't heal.

Tiny pink scars

pucker on skin.

I'm not ready to forget

Just let my blood flow freely

like my tears

like my soul.

A calling

resonates through me.

To love.

Haven't I loved enough

already?

Look where that led me.

Scorn.

Anguish.

Torment.

The problem is

that is isn't your fault.

I blame myself,

the monster within.

I see each tomorrow

through new eyes.

It's just gonna be better

it can't get any worse.

Right?

Wrong.

How could you know?

No one knows the future

No one can challenge fate

Never say never

Never say forever

Time will end

Love has its restraints

Even we

can be suppressed

Let it be.

Can't I just be me?

No.

I lost me.

I'm a new, different me.

I have become

what I cannot

should not

be.

Oh well.

It's too late

for saving

I

am

sorry.

I

just

can't

let

go.

Perhaps,

you should just leave me

to suffer

in my lonely torment.

Have I not hurt

long enough

already?

This pain shall suffice

as a connection

to what I lost.

The past

can't be left behind.

You just keep coming back,

don't you?

Well,

it's too late

to be the same.

Everything changes.

Doesn't mean life

will go on.