all i feel is this pain, this dull ache, that deep emptiness, abyss, deep as that thing in the pacific.
i am the mariana trench.
nothing in my tummy, just empty to the bottom. nothing today.
oh god, somebody make it stop, tell me it's okay, i'm not that big blue whale.
but that's how i feel- huge, gargantuan, gigantic- floating in a sea of black. too big. all alone, too big for anyone to get near.
make it stop. "i'd love you even if you were four hundred pounds." you liar.
you fucking lied and now i'm more than empty. i'm a big fucking black hole.
outer space. deep sea. alone.
but more importantly, without you.