i don't know how it started but somehow
i. stopped. feeling.
and i didn't wake up on time anymore
i don't sleep
i keep working and studying and lying
and i'm numb
my heart started throbbing and bouncing
instead of beating
to make up for my b l a n k face
i don't smile, never did, it was a lie

my smile was never anything
but a peace treaty
give me what i want, i'll give it to you
what you want
because everything is too easy for me
i understand
i'm a whale, my tail influences all
the currents
manipulation is second nature
you're all pathetic, always were, this can't be real