1. I said something unforgivable on Saturday
2. I don't remember what I said
3. I am possibly creating an irreparable crack in my relationship with my mother
4. She has probably given up on me by now
5. My sister believes that I don't care about her
6. I don't know whether I care about her
7. I am determined to stay up all night because she told me not to
8. I consider this a desperate plea for attention
9. My mother will probably consider this further evidence that I don't give a damn about her
10. This is killing me