i'm tearing myself apart for someone that doesn't care
enough to tell me to stop. someone who isn't strong enough
to ask me why i'm hurting so much. a boy i thought i love
enough to go through hell & back for. a boy that
i would do anything for.

i'm tearing myself apart for something i don't believe in.

i'm breaking myself down because i love him,
& i'm not going to stop loving him
until every fiber of every muscle is detached
from every ligament that holds my bones up.

i'm tearing myself apart so he doesn't have to believe in
the lie that i've let myself become.