i knew it was wrong but i couldn't resist
leaning in for just one more kiss,
hoping maybe it would fix
every part of me that felt broken & used,
even though he'd made it clear
i wasn't there to be a part of his life
for the long-term, i was just
a summer fling, his play-thing
before he returned to his career,
the job he's held for the past three years
while i've been in high school, waiting
for my life to begin.

i knew it was wrong but i couldn't resist;
i hungrily took what was set before me
& then let him walk away without telling him
how i really feel—that it did matter,
& now it's my biggest regret.

i knew it was wrong but i couldn't resist.
& now i must face the consequence.