Unrequited, Unanswered

Seeing your back,
turned towards me,
and your hand touching,
a face that's not mine.
Watching you walk,
away from where,
I am standing,
towards that girl.
The bubbling joy,
that I had felt,
dwindled to none,
as pain bit me hard.

In a frantic struggle,
to taste your love,
I cannot help,
but to feel mellow.
Maybe it's just me,
stupid, baka me,
trying too hard,
to get what's not mine.
Yet I just can't give up,
for I sense,
deep in your heart,
I still stand somewhere.

Waking up at night,
from a dream of you,
thinking you're there,
but only grabbing air.
Sitting up in bed,
grieving for my loss,
tearing for what is gone,
knowing it will never come.
The bubbling joy,
that I had felt,
dissolved to none,
as grief bit me hard.

In a frantic struggle,
to taste your love,
I cannot help,
but to feel mellow.
Maybe it's just me,
stupid, baka me,
trying too hard,
to get what's not mine.
Yet I just can't give up,
for I believe,
deep in your heart,
I still stand somewhere.

I dream of your return,
scream at my loneliness,
I see no reason to live,
feel no sense of vigour.

In a frantic struggle,
to taste your love,
I cannot help,
but to feel mellow.
Maybe it's just me,
stupid, baka me,
trying too hard,
to get what's not mine.
Yet I just can't give up,
for I know,
deep in your heart,
I still stand somewhere.
for I see,
deep in your heart,
I still stand in there.

[My unspoken, unanswered, unrequited love,
I shall keep within me.]